pullin some ninja shit so i need to be fast lol. well not really because he is sleeping but still i feel kinda weird cause i bet my typing is really loud and annoying.

anyhows.

not really much to update really things are just good.

i still have to get use to that...things are just nice, and calm and nice lol.

he's just so damn cute...fuckin a. i need ( Read more... )

 I LOVE MY BF

lol....i know i shouldnt yet but i do...so yeah...fuck it lol

 this is going to be very vague and kinda odd...i dunno just need it out of my head...

i knew i was a fuckin toy okay? ever think that you had me redunced to the point i had no issue with that anymore? i was happy to be a fucking object. i longed to be a fucking object.

meer...not that it matter now just...groan...why did i never tell this to you?

.. ( Read more... )

i'm just in his house.....ALONE.

lol this is super super super weird. i mean i's cool and all cause it means i dont have to go back to my real crappy life while he's at workie but still. i'm goina be just alone in someone elses house for HOOOOUUUURSSS!!!!!!!!!!! lol i have no idea what to do with myself. i know i wanna get a shower at some point ( Read more... )

 i really really really really

REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY

REALLY
REALLY
R
E
A
L
L
Y

need to stop over thinking my life lol.

why is happy so god damn scary to me. this is how i ruin things lol. i panic and assume somthing has to go wrong. this fuckin guy. i know it's ( Read more... )

 i've been half jokingly planning this speech in my head of what to say if patrick said he loved me. i was goina go into how it's too soon to really say somthing like that and we should see how things go and i really want this to work out so we should take things really slow...

i chicked out.

it's soooo hard to stick to shit like that. he's so fuckin ( Read more... )

 i was kinda looking forward to a day all to myself in the house and then a night with patrick....so much for that lol

it's only 5 and there back home already. they never come home from anything that early...assholes lol.

i was just gettin into singing and danceing and playin around my house after watchin zombieland on tv and mom was in...fuckin a... ( Read more... )

 lol i was so use to always posting sad things but lately nothing bad is happening like...ever. this really may have been the best week of my life.

my new relstionship with patrick, seeing jess and them...seeing patrick EVERY DAMN DAY...like it's just amazeing. he's un-frickin-beliveable. he keep getting better.

i felt kinda bad today though. i ( Read more... )

 YOUR GOING INTO THE AIR FORCE

YOU.

MR. I SHALL NOT CUT MY HAIR

MR. I WILL NEVER

MR. MY FATHER IS WRONG

dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood.....air force.

air
force

AIR

FORCE!!!

well....your already a fuckin robot so your halfway there.

 okay so it may be too early to really get too excited cause who knows what tomarrow may bring

BUT

i has a boyfriend!!!!!!!

the cute sweet SUPPPER nice guy asked me to make this a "thing" MAD EXCITE!!!  i wonder if this will work out but whatevers, i'm not going to look at this negitivly yet. i like him, he likes me and thats really fuckin great lol ( Read more... )