ummm marie & erin, this is what i want to look like next time we go out. so i would appreciate if we could find this outfit and do my hair like that soon. thanks.


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i have serious issues.

i really need to move away right now.

i'm horribly depressed today and basically angry at the world. and i need to talk to someone, but i have no time and i have no one here who cares. it's so funny how you can spend your entire day surrounded by people, yet feel so completely alone. life is so fair.

i really just want to leave for germany right now and get away from everything i've ( Read more... )

i love my friends so much. and it breaks my  heart because i miss them so much and seeing them for such a short time and then not seeing them for so long afterward hurts so intensely.

and it's really hard being all alone in a city where the only people that you call friends are fake and really could give a shit about you in all honesty.

so today is the best day of my life!!! i am the most excited person in the world at the moment. i just went for my interview for study abroad and found out that i got into the program!!! and then i walked out of the office and found out bethalynn is going too!! so i am for sure GOING TO GERMANY NEXT YEAR!!! and me and bethalynn are going to travel ( Read more... )

so i'm apparently just fucking retarded. no seriously, i used to be smart. what the hell happened ot me? grades came so easily to me before. i never had to worry. now i just feel like the biggest fucking dumbass ever. i'm not used to getting these grades. and it's really hard for me to accept them. yeah i realized i go to the university of michigan ( Read more... )

so i like how after everything i've been through in my life, i somehow always manage to convince myself again that i can depend on people. and then i learn my lesson. over and over again. the point never seems to sink in though. YOU CAN'T TRUST PEOPLE, TERRA. maybe i'll finally get it. most likely not though. i think i need to just give up on ( Read more... )

You're not the first to cry
Nor the last to have a broken heart
You're not the only one
To feel so completely alone.
A poor little girl
Lost in the cruel world?
I think not.
Depression isn't unique
Crying is so cliche
Who's really going to feel bad for you
When so many suffer the same?

Just so you all know, my hard drive crashed again. Yeah ( Read more... )

Scream
Dig your nails into the soft flesh
Bite down as hard as you need
The pain will pass
Eventually.
You live to please
That doesn't guarantee
You'll find pleasure.
Cry
Alone in your room
They won't find you there
Whispering silent prayers
Futilely.
No one is listening
And no one can help
You'll be a lonely soul
Eternally.