Things are slowly looking up here. Stephen and I were planning for a Sept wedding. Instead, his family talked us into having one during the summer. That way the kids wont miss any school and it wont be rainey season up in North Carolina. His mother and father, at first, were saying we shouldn't rush it or anything... then his Aunt Gladys told me ( Read more... )

Have you ever had a time in your life where everything made sense and then at the drop of a dime everything goes bad? Well this is that sort of month for me. Everything started off great. I have a fiance I love and adore. (My Stephen) I was happier then I have been in the longest. I started working with this guy here in town on my poetry. He has a ( Read more... )

Why is it every time I type on this damn thing... something happens and the whole damn thing fucking erases ( Read more... )

I noticed whenever I find someone I really want to be with... it rarely lasts more then a week for some reason or another. Adam still wants to be with me. I'm thinking about going back to him. *sigh*. I'm starting to think Shaun wasn't serious about wanting to be with me. The day he was over here I felt like he did wanted to be with me. Now... I ( Read more... )

Well I broke up with Adam. The shit was just getting way too deep for me. Consider me a bad person, I don't care. It just wasn't for me. I'm not ready to move in with someone after 8 days and live a life where I have to be with someone I barely know 24/7. I found someone else though. He's 100 times better then Adam, and he makes me extremely happy ( Read more... )

I have no reason to feel the way I do. I should be happy. But why don't I? I feel useless and empty. You'd think I'd be used to feeling this way by now. It seems like the more I feel this way... the less I can handle it. Why do I always feel so damn empty? I want to feel something. Some feeling other than emptiness, loniness, and ueslessness. Is ( Read more... )

I don't know what to think anymore. I care about Adam so much, and I know he cares about me. He lives 2 - 3 hrs away right now. However, he told me today he found some jobs he was looking for here in columbus. I know if he moves here... and gets a place ... he's gonna want to move me in and stuff so that we could be together. Which is extremely ( Read more... )

Well, today is just THE day for me. I feel great. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I love and who loves me. heheh. Yes you read right!!! Jenny-Bean has found another one. haha. This one I'm thinking will last awhile. I really hope it does too. He says he hopes it does too. He lives in South Ga. About 2 hrs from me. That's not bad compared to ( Read more... )

Well, Yvette had her baby. She's the most beautiful baby girl ever. Her and Brad named the baby Miah Hayven. So cute. The day Miah was born (07-07-03) my friend Felix and I were joking around about him coming down to Columbus and picking me up to spend a few days up there (he lives in Gainesville, which is about 45 min from Lawrenceville where ( Read more... )

I feel really empty today for some reason. Lisa's taking me to see the fireworks show on Ft. Benning. Big Whoop. Atleast then I'll hopefully get a chance to get my mind off things. Mostly, it's focused on my new line of work. I got a job being a dealer for this company in TN. I'll be working here in Columbus starting my own branch. I'll be my own ( Read more... )