Man, after last night I feel like a whole new person. Everytime I see David and the guys (along with my friend T) I'm just really happy. Maybe it's because they know me so well and know how to make me laugh. I really needed hanging out with them last night. It was just me, David, T, Terrance, and Richard, but that's ok... we had a great time. Had a ( Read more... )

You know the one thing I can't stand? When people assume shit about me. Take my " Father " for example... he assumes that just because I'm asleep when he calls... I haven't done anything ALL day. When infact I've been on my hands and knees scrubbing the kitchen floors today, washing dishes, cleaning the counters, moving the furniture in the living ( Read more... )

Gawd! What's wrong with me??? I hate feeling the way I do. Right now I just feel like "Nothing." I feel like I'm not even here and no one really cares (Cept for David, Lisa, and the rest of my old Clique). The only prob is there's not home to cheer me up *cries*. I know I can't rely on others to make me happy. I know my life's not the center of the ( Read more... )

So like yesterday I went to the hospital to get the results to my test. Incase I failed to mention it... 2 months ago I took a blood test for a physical. I wasn't doing it for a job or anything, but felt it was due time I went for one. I was suppose to go last month for the results but I hesitated and canceled the appointment. Now I'm thinking that ( Read more... )

Lately I've been meeting quiet a few people and it's cool and stuff. They seem really interested or whatever. I mean, at first they're great or whatever... then I start my analyzing and stuff... which makes them turn into really annoying people. So far... now that I think about it... there's roughly about 10 people out of every person I've met my ( Read more... )

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. (nothing new) I had the perfect entry written and stiff and when I was about to click "update journal" ... it all deleted. dammit. Basically what it said was this... I don't know what to think with Shane. I mean at times it seems like he wants to be with me and other times it seems like he doesn't. I don't ( Read more... )

I've been wondering... ok... the past 4-5 days have been really wonderful and stuff.. and I really don't want it to end. I want to be with Shane more then anything right now. Sometimes I get the feeling he wants the same. The way he looks at me... I haven't had anyone look at me like that in years. When he hugs me, I feel so safe and extremely ( Read more... )

Well... things seem to be making a turn... either that or just being away from Columbus and with Shane is making me happy. Shane really is a great guy. He asked me to come see him ... and how can I resist saying no to that handsome face? So I said yes. I've been over here at his house for 3 days now. I'll be here till the 5th. After that, he's ( Read more... )

I've been analyzing my life again... I really hate it when I do that but it's just too much of a habit for me to drop. I need to learn to be more positive about things.. I'll admit it. I get worried over the smallest things now... which is so not like me. I need to go back to the point where I can simply block out the side of me that worries about ( Read more... )

Lately I've had a feeling that my mind's made up what I wanted. Yesterday I went to dad's work to help him with a party they were having for the company. We bbqed and stuff, it was fun. Some of the local cops showed up and got them some food... so did some of the 911 dispatchers. None of us were complaining.... I mean there was plenty to go around ( Read more... )