I've been thinking about life a lot the past few days and it seems like whenever you decide something's for you... there's always something holding it back. Why do I have to be such a worrier? Why can't I do what's on my mind and not care about anything? Why can't I go after someone when it's clear as day they're somewhat interested? Why do I ( Read more... )

Well... today Yvette and Brad are supposed to come over. I got the house halfway clean. I'm not gonna make it perfect b/c I've been doing nothing but cleaning all week.... well aside from going out with Lisa. Her mom finally went to the car dealership and put the car in her husband's name. They didn't even bother telling her about it. From what I ( Read more... )

Yesterday my friend Stephen came over to hang out with me and have a few drinks. We started talking about the past, like before him, John, and Robert got sent to jail for the things they did. One thing we kept going back to was the New Years party back in '99 when it was about to be 2000. Man, we has so much fun back then. My brother was still ( Read more... )

The other day I got a very surprising phone call. My friend Aaron who I went to school with called. Ever since I was a sophmore and he was a freshman in hs, he was always like a baby brother to me. He used to tell me everything and I used to tell him everything. He used to put up with a lot of shit from me. That is untill I kicked him to the curb ( Read more... )

A couple of days ago I bought my a huge book to use as a journal for writing and not typing. In the past two years I think I went through 2 other journals (writing wise). I think the shortest entry was 1 1/2 pages. I guess at times when I actually writing (not typing) I seem to have more to say. It goes the same when I'm talking. When I'm online ( Read more... )

Well court went good yesterday. Daniel was banned from Columbus and the judge put a restrainging order against him for me and my brother. Paul went with us, which was very cool of him. He was supposed to go fishing with his fiance's father, but decided this was more important. I really am lucky to have him as a friend. I know no matter what he'll ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about life a lot lately. Things don't seem to be going right. I think I've pissed off more people in the last week then I've made happy in the past two days. That's definately not like me. I guess I'm too caught up in how bad things are in Columbus for me. I wish it was summer time already, because that would mean I would be in ( Read more... )

You know... I thought this weekend was gonna be bad b/c my "guest" wasn't gonna show, but the other day I found a good reason why he shouldn't have been here. Daniel (dad's gf's son) got into it with my brother Mike. I heard my friend Paul screaming for them to stop fighting when I was in bed watching TV. I hauled ass to get dressed. By the time I ( Read more... )

As much I wish it wasn't true, I was right. This weekend isn't gonna happen. I was really looking forward to it too. I had everything planned out. Lisa was gonna let me borrow one of her dresses that everyone said I looked GREAT in. Sometimes I get the feeling he likes me as something more than friends... and other times... I get the feeling it ( Read more... )

1 1/2 more days till my "guest" arrives. It should be fun! I'll admit I'm really nervous, but I'm still looking forward to it. I've done some drastic cleaning around here, which the house needed. Same with my room. All I need to do to my room is hang some things up on my walls. The other things I have to do are the living room and some touch-ups ( Read more... )