I am slowly realizing my mind is going insane... i think i am preparing to come to the realization I am doing it to myself again... do i just like the verbal abuse? do i just like hurting myself? I need to do something, but I am torn. I have never been in a place where it feels so right, but the other person is not sure. she was sick today and ( Read more... )

i am sorry i should no better... but take what i said abotu being happy and with a girl who likes me, and reword that to the girl is freaking out, is panicked and now saying she does not think she can do this right now until she gets things in her head figured out... i am torn i am trying i am so TRYING to not run away and to be there and work ( Read more... )

i am happy, i am taken :) I am being treated good, and did I mention I am happy. I have had this stupid ass gryn on my face for weeks now :)

I just wanted to share.

strange as this might be I just wanted to throw a quick post up. not much details, I am seeing someone. Things are going well... trying to take things slow which is easy being we live on different sides of cleveland and both work and I go to school. But yeah... it is someone who just might be good for me... about damn time no? I hope things ( Read more... )

Well I read the entry I wrote at teh first of the year... funny how things go. I talked about having a best friend and how I hate that term... and what do you know, my 'best friend' is the person who knows me the least now. i do not think to call her when something good happens, and i am about to blow up in her face for not calling me or being ( Read more... )

things were different this year thats for sure. i now have a best friend, though sometimes im very afraid that i call her that. i guess im so used to be let down that i just wait for it to happen and i try so hard not to do it myself... *sighs* anywho i finished my first semester of grad school, i got a 3.65 i still dont believe it but i wont ( Read more... )

So I know this isnt something new for many of you and for some of you it is a big who cares but it is something I really havent had to deal with in a long time. To sum up the situation I went to a friends house who happens to be a coworker. We were getting things done because I am filling in until she comes back from maternity leave and when she ( Read more... )

So a little update from me. I moved back home, though this weekend a last minute house sitting job came up. by the time i am done i should have made all the money it cost me to get my laptop :) go me! anywho things are alright i guess. amber and i have become really good friends. its weird, on the weekends if we dont hang out we are like what ( Read more... )

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well i know this doesnt matter much since i hardly update as it is... but i might start once school starts again... but right now it has been ahrd to update. i am now living at my neighbors, its the third house in two weeks, ive slept in my own bed only once, and really i have slept in 4 others since i slept at pregos the one night when i would ( Read more... )