if you cant trust someone, you have nothing.
truthfully, i was in serious denial.
i have very little to no trust.

because someone who does not know what they want keeps you on their same tetter totter, and truthfully, i dont need a tetter totter because i am sure of what i want.

i say it year after year and each time i'm that much more intent upon it. i do not make new years resolutions because i think that any time is a good time to change something about yourself and your life. so today i want to talk about my pre-christmas idea for next year and then i can revisit and check out how it works for me next year. i'm writing ( Read more... )

So its Thanksgiving and I'm sitting at home getting ready for my day. I cooked some soy chorizo and egg burritos for everyone this morning...they turned out fantastic, everyone thought they were super good. My family doesnt start celebrating with Turkey till about 6pm so i'm basically just lounging around until then. I'm gonna head out to the gym ( Read more... )

to everytime i think i may let him back into my life- this entry will suffice for every reason not to ( Read more... )

i went to church today. it felt really good, truth is, i miss that old me. a lot. i was so much happier then, so much less preoccupied with myself. i was less selfish and more open. i realized today how many walls i've built up since i stopped going. how much pain and hurt i've consumed myself with causing me to put walls up without even realizing ( Read more... )

i have that feeling again ( Read more... )

I decided id put my last entry on private. All of those feelings are pent up and its only between me and someone else. Too much information otherwise. Most of my entries are going to be friends only from now on

i want to cuddle to fall asleep.
and i wanted to hear a "goodnight, lils."
but i didnt get one.

chosen naivety. its the much better option. then you dont have to worry about anything. you can just believe anything from anyones mouth and when they prove themselves wrong, then you can just laugh about it. no skin off your back. think about it. i gotta learn to start being really good at being fake, then i'll never have to get close to anyone ( Read more... )

so unbelievabely annoyed ( Read more... )