So about 30 mins left of Christmas. It was good, except for one wee sorta big sorta wee thing. Just the fact the nearly everything reminds me of her. I mean like my aunt got me the superman returns collector's edition... memories... then I open a superman letter opener... memories... I see "The Christmas Story" on TV... memories. There was one ( Read more... )

The biggest downer would have to be thinking that she was jsut going through a phase and after like a quarter or something. Then afterwords, she would get over it and maybe be willing to try again... bleh guess not.

slowly going nuts just sitting aroumd....

Well the title is kinda a give away, but ya. My brother came down for the holidays and was able to spend the day hanging out with him, his wife and their daughter. Was great fun and good times were had by all. Was great seeing all of them again. They would have stayed the night had Susie not been so fussy. But that's ok. So ya, good day.

Ya, that's right, got a new phone, the Cingular SYNC. So, this is a good start to hopefully a string of good events... atleast that would be very kewl.

And so I continue to torment myself with visions of the past. Its hard not to... it hurts so much to try and some how mantain some sort of contact, but I just cant let go, this isnt how its suppose to be. So I sit and watch parts of my past in the present light.

And it continues to weigh heavy upon my heart. No matter what I do, what I think, its still there. Probably what I miss most is knowing she's there for me. I mean we survived for so long with not seeing each other for large amounts of time, so the contact wasnt the big part of our relationship, it was more of the knowing we were each others.

If life had a face, I'd punch it.
If love had a head, I'd round house kick it.

Its just a girl.. 1 gabillion more out there and atleast 1/5 of them better then this one.. right, but right now, at this exact moment, I would do nearly anything to be held in her arms again like if nthing had ever happened. I always think that maybe its true, maybe ( Read more... )

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house ( Read more... )

DONE! Ya, downer today was blanking on my chinese test. Upside, I think I did well on my sociology test and I had a pretty relaxed and chill night.