Guess what? I'm engaged ( Read more... )

Some people you just want to look at in the eye and say, "I GIVE UP ON YOU." And perhaps it's the right time to get around to saying it. Some people are just simply hopeless, and if they can't see what's right before thier eyes, then God help them because they will never find happiness ( Read more... )

Just a minute-man update: Finally saw Return of the King. Justin took Jeremy out for the day. And, let me just say I was literally blown away. That movie is too good for words. Billy Boyd gave a jaw dropping performance. And he has such a lovely voice. I think I found my new crush. *nods* And when Frodo and Sam were in Mount Doom.. I just couldn't ( Read more... )

Sometimes the whole meaning of your life can be wrapped up in the adoring stare of a tiny three year old. It's amazing. I can almost read how much belief Jeremy has in Santa. You look in his eyes and it makes you catch your breath, like something just isn't quite right. It's not awkward, it's not scary.. it's new, but it's perfect ( Read more... )

I never knew waking up in the morning could be such a unique and wonderful experience. I'm usually not a morning person. I'd wake up and lay in bed for an hour, get coffee and trudge to the set. But now it's different. Jeremy usually wakes up before my alarm goes off and he'll wobble into my room, climb up into my bed and crawl under the covers ( Read more... )

So maybe miracles can come true ( Read more... )

I will not go around begging for respect and friendship. That's just not how friends are supposed to act around each other. And I really don't know how many times I have to say that I'm sorry I hurt anyone with my actions, that i'm not trying to lay the blame on Dan, and that i'm not using Dan just to get close to his bandmates ( Read more... )

I had this amazing moment of realization. And it reminded me of "Dirty Dancing," when Patrick Swayze says, "Nobody puts Baby in the corner." I looked into my mirror, saw the expression on my face and said, "Nobody runs Lindsay away." I had run away from Lj because one person who I thought was my friend couldn't help but think the worst of me. I had ( Read more... )

I'll do a real update later. Right now I just have to go clean up the shot glasses and food all over the kitchen. After that, I plan on going back to my room, putting on some music and curling into a ball where it's nice, and warm, and safe.

But, last night.. it was fun. Thanks Dan, Garret and Jon. :)

I'm in New York.
The door in unlocked.
The place is clean.
Food is cooking.
And the boys will be here soon.

It's fun having some people I feel comfortable around. I don't feel any reason to be embarrassed if I just walk around in a t-shirt. It doesn't bother me at all, which is a new thing because usually, I get all flushed and nervous. And ( Read more... )