i havent updated in FOREVER. honestly i am not really sure why I am now. It is 2 in the morning and I just feel like I have a lot on my mind. I have been thinking a lot lately. i have been disappointed. i think because things arent as i expected they would be when i returned from turkey. before i left the rotarians told me...sometimes when kids get ( Read more... )

Ahh yes home again. For the past week and a half I have been off traveling around to New England visiting family and colleges. Talk about stressful. I left with my mom last wednesday and went to her parents house. They live in upstate NY and its nice but I got a little bored there for 4 days. My grandmother and I played golf one day. It was-in a ( Read more... )

The weirdness of being home has finally sunk in. Tonight I had a soccer game and after I went out to dinner with some friends. As soon as we got there it was OMG GOSSIP! Everything from mom bashing, dirty sluts, guys, and "hilarious" stories. I was just totally bored the whole night. I cant seem to figure out who changed...me or them. I refuse to ( Read more... )

AHHH I will be in Maine in less than 48 hours. It really hasnt hit home yet though. I know I am leaving, but it is kinda the same way I know my favorite color is blue. The information is there, but it just isnt that important. I started packing. Then I got bored and my room is in a state of destruction. I dont think I will sleep tomorrow night, and ( Read more... )

I opened my email a little while ago to a "Hey Lady!!". It was just what I needed. I miss Grisel. She said she is happy to be home and to be with her family but she said she cant talk the same with her friends as she used to be. She is just now realizing how much she changed here. I wonder if that will be the same for me. If when I get back, my ( Read more... )

So that was the coolest thing I have done in a long time. I just got a ride home in a cop car! And all I did was ask for directions. Haha. I was at Paulos birthday party, just in Acibadem. I have come home from there before and it only cost my 3 mil so I decided...fuck it Im gunna walk. I have been extremely poor lately, I can use the money for ( Read more... )

Curse my host father. So he comes home last night, him, my mother and I have a nice family dinner and we talk. We make normal random chit chat and then he asks me: What are you going to do for the next month? Arent you gunna get bored? In my head I am thinking...of course I am not gunna get bored...my schedule is consumed with trips to the airport ( Read more... )

Oops...its been a while. I wont bother to update you on what I havent written about well because frankly I dont care too. Today is thursday May 26, 2005 10:41 PM. I have consumed a considerable amount of coca cola in the past hour and I am starting to feel it. I wasted all my kontor on a phone call to steph. FUCK I hate it when that happens. From ( Read more... )

İ cant believe how fast the time flies! Today is May 9...İ have less than 2 months left. İ know it will go by really fast too because İ have stuff coming up to keep me busy. The east tour starts on Thursday which İ am really looking forward too. İ am looking forward to going to the east but most of all İ am looking forward to getting out of ( Read more... )

Ugh İ am not sure on this one but arent İtalians the ones known for their hospitality? Turks definately put up a fight. İ got home a short while ago and in a matter of minutes my mom brought a tray of dinner for me to eat. Yummy soup, and bread and something else that İ dont know how to classify or explain for that matter. Then İ finished and she ( Read more... )