there are definitely a lot of things i resent my mom for and a lot of poor decisions i've made over the years that i've wanted her to fix and she hasn't and that's okay.  mostly because i know when i really need her, like when i really really REALLY fuck myself over and i'm crying and smoking a cigarette in my bathroom screaming because i'm afraid ( Read more... )

so for the first time i'm really, REALLY struggling in school.  i kind of don't know what to do about it.

prah-blems
prah-blems
prah-blems

worst part(s): i do this to myself/this is the calm before the storm

 okay ugay...try as you might, you can NOT dupe me out of work study money.  filed my fafsa the first week of janurary, said i wanted work study, and you guys done fucked up.  IT'S ON.  like it is before the beginning of EVERY semester.....

 reasons why my best friend is my best friend ( Read more... )

( i had to give tuxedo back to my mom and i'm ridiculously sad about it. this is an extrapolation of the situation. )

okay so my best friend and i are growing apart. we have been growing apart for the past year or so. maybe year and a quarter. regardless of duration, it has been a hard, painful time, mostly due to my refusal to accept it. i say, "i could just let this come to an organic close," and he objects and tries, but then it falls short. is it my fault ( Read more... )

i've been having dreams consisting of someone pulling a gun on me for the past couple months. and now i keep getting shot in my dreams. assuming i sleep. which i haven't. everything freaks me out and about 90% of the time i think the person on the other side of my door is someone here to shoot me ( Read more... )

my vague dissatisfaction (borderline apathy) with everything really made today kind of really suck. as did my lack of sleep. as did my fish being sick and weird. as did my dumb math class. as did my spanish class. as did my mom calling me to borrow 500 dollars and then harassing me because the log-in wouldn't work. i know that it isn't her ( Read more... )

i think you are funny (as in wrong) and i think you are wonderful