It's too late for me to be up but there seems to be nothing I can do about it.  There is record playing in my head and it keeps saying is "everything is NOT going to be alright."  It feels like grief...yeah, it's grief, and lack of sleep and excercise and good eating habits and time with God.  It's caring too much about what other people think and ( Read more... )

My fiancé is a theory and I'm not even talking about what he could be in the future.  Right now the man I'm supposed to get married to doesn't exist.  He is a balloon that is constantly loosing air.  I revive it with fond memories from a week long trip three months ago, or the positive thoughts I have about what might be some day, only the ( Read more... )

Today I don't mind that everything feels hard because I can feel God so close. I think the fact that it's hard is what brought him so close.

May 13th is Mosiah’s Birthday.  As you know, I enjoy nothing more than celebrating with people.  Since Mosiah is so far away I had to get creative.  I’m going to need your help, if you are willing.

I would like to flood Mosiah with Birthday cards.  I know May 13th sounds like it’s far away but in the Third World postal system three weeks is but a ( Read more... )

Just now I was getting frustrated that my mouse was not working, then looked down and realized I was wiggling my cell phone.

I'm leaving facebook but don't know what to "clear out".  I suppose I should go collect a few peoples e-mail addresses, the ones I like.  Every time I get on Facebook I feel andiety.  I know I could just stay off but I'm always getting e-mails and to be honest I don't belive in the concept.  I'm goin "Old School", if you like me, e-mail me.  That ( Read more... )

I sneeze once daily between 2:30 and 3:00...it's weird.

There should be a National No Negativity Day.

IT'S FRIDAY!!!!
I'm going home in three minutes and I'm SO excited!

Will someone please tell how to not have my whole world feel like it's caving in when Mosiah and I are having a disagreement? While I am 33 I have never had a boyfriend before and it's hard to describe how awful it is. I prayed before I talked to him and I prayed after and even still...awful ( Read more... )