Tell me, how do you stay miles away and on the same page ( Read more... )

wonderful counselor, you sit above the sphere of the world
you see through facade
your grace helped me forgive, but i need your hand to heal this wound...
it's 10 years deep and the scar tissue is covering severed arteries...

see it? it's in your pocket ( Read more... )

IF ANYONE HAS OLD AWAY WITH VEGA CD'S...PLEASE, LET ME KNOW!

I can't remember the words to Repetition, Repetition...

Thanksgiving...unorthodox, but as ashlee pointed out, it made me thankful...in the worst way. I don't know if quite grasp why death is so painful and why I'm so selfish. Maybe it's a sense of failure. AS if our efforts to keep him alive through love, care, and just being there weren't enough. I wish this all would have happened when I was younger. ( Read more... )

I pushed it to the back of my head and now I am realizing I can't lie to myself now that I've told the truth once. She's the one. I think about her and my stomach tangles up in knots. I see pictures of her and something in my chest drops. I hear her voice and my arms feel empty. She's not a prize though. I can't just win her. No, she is a blessing ( Read more... )

So here I am thinking, "Why am I starting over again?" Why am I ripping out these sutures and re-opening old wounds? I am cutting the scar tissue on some of these.

Scalpel.

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I made one of the hardest decisions of my life today. I cried when it was all over.

I realized something I love about my apartment - randomly seeing rabbits and squirrels as I walk up to my door.

I hung out with them. They're happy. She's over the rebound guy, me.

Everywhere I look someone is happy with someone else. Even the people who aren't couples have someone of the opposite sex to spend time with and talk to. I have nothing. Don't get me wrong, I love my bros. I am just sick of it happening around me and not to me. I feel like their happiness is surrounding me and I'm becoming clausterphobic with each ( Read more... )