Alot of stuff going on, don't really want to talk about it. Working alot, not really doing much else. Still living out in Ypsi. Sams out finally. I wish I could see him more then I do. I miss him alot still. Got a whole bucnh of animals agian. 2 Beareded Dragons, a Water Dragon, a Red Tail Boa, an Iguanna and of course I still have my kitties ( Read more... )

Make it stop, make it stop make it stop!!. I just want my brain to turn off!! I hate feeling so depressed not knowing why! I hate wanting to cry for no reason that I can even think off. I want someone to hold me and just let me cry, even thought I don't know why I am crying, just let me get it all out, but I have no one who could understand how ( Read more... )

Being a borderline feels like eternal hell. Nothing less. Pain, anger, confusion, hurt, never knowing how I'm gonna feel from one minute to the next. Hurting because I hurt those who I love and care about. Feeling misunderstood. Analyzing everything. Nothing gives me pleasure. Once in a great while I will get "too happy" and then anxious because of ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel as if I am trapped in a whirlpool of my thoughts and each second they are pulling me closer and closer to death.

So I don't know whats up with me, well I do but I don't know why agian like usual. My head is all full of fucked up thoughts and shit. I want to run around throwing things and screaming and hurting things, but instead I just hurt myself, and I don't even know WHY I am feeling like this, which is the hardest part I think. I was looking back on ( Read more... )

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Oh wow, this is the hardest comedown off of 'e' I have had in years......My whole body hurts and I still haven't been able to sleep. All I want is for someone to hold me, for some reason I feel really alone......At least Patton brought some smoke over tonight, that helped slightly.....

Everyone over here rolled last night, I had a good time. I love rolling!! They were really good pills. YEAH!!! No more baby aspirin!!! Spent alot of time just talking to people hanging out, getting to really know everyone better, I think it was a good night for everyone. Its like 12:30 now and I still haven't slept. I wish I had a bowl to ( Read more... )

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Well, I found my tax return stuff finally it was in the bottomof a box. LoL. Yes I know ITS JULY and its kinda late, but I called the tax place and they said I could still file my taxes, so I am going to. My friend did them for me today and it looks like I am going to be getting a decent amount back, so thats good. I am happy! I went to Steak ( Read more... )