I am bored today so I thought i'd update a little bit ( Read more... )

pneumonia

really... she died of pneumonia...

i thought knowing how she died would give me closeure

but it has instead opened up the wounds again, and almost made it worse

because how the fuck do you not recognize pneumonia?? even after she died.. i mean... even if they' couldn't've saved her.. you think you could've figured it out..

I haven't been on this thing in AGGGGEES
so i decided i'm going to start using it again
it's a good outlet for me
plus, i love to write so clearly this is a good way right??

although i don't think any of my friends actually use this anymore but it's all good

but that is also all for now as i have nothing to say

isn't it weird how you think you can be okay or happy and you see or read or hear one thing, and you are totally thrown ( Read more... )

mother fucker.....

it isn't your fucking problem

so leave me the hell alone.

it's my life

i make my own choices

i don't want your fucking opinion every fucking second

i've never truely believed she was gone......

damn it
why'd you leave?
i'll never get over this
ever

i was in a really good mood today

and i wrecked

i dont even know how

what ev..

1. i have an odd addiction to these
2. no matter how odd you may think it is,
3. i am, waht i would consider to be, friends with Ms.Jensen and Herr Rast
4. i trust them.
5. when i was hurting on Teusday because of Erin, i went to them.

um i think
Ms.Jensen is the most amazing teacher i've ever had.

w/o her support today i dont know if i could've gotten through the day....

she helped me a lot
she said to me what a lot of my friends said
but it was the way she said it
and she knew Erin the way i did. because she knew us together.

hm

...well anyway

Happy birthday 'Rin i love