i want to leave .  i want to run away . i want to disappear and start fresh .
but everything is so comfortable.

and what if i ran and i couldnt find better. what if this is what i really wanted.

maybe because im indecisive. maybe im scared  or scarred .  maybe im just unmedicated.
or i saw the future and would rather flee now.
maybe .

never ending ( Read more... )

some days i feel like a mommy, some i dont, some im so happy with the way everything turned out, and some i miss the past.

i  will always see both sides of everythig and it isnt neccessarily such a good thing

a whole new year a whole new me. maybe ill come back

i am a life size barbie doll. nuff said.

mostly friends only.  add me.

i spend my nights inbetween unconsciousness, dreams, and reality.  sometimes i cant tell if i really am in that car with theboy driving down the highway, most likely not, or if im dreaming im on the phone with a drunk shady friend, more likely. completely unnerving. 
im in this becuase i have to be. life. 
im in this becuase i can.  sometimes i know ( Read more... )

i never update. but im never home to be on my laptop, besides its a p.o.s and i need to bring it back to best buy and get it fixed (there are sooo many things wrong with it ( Read more... )

bamboozle sucked.  few decent bands, overall not worth my time.

but my summer has defpotential to ROCK!!
my best friends gf is amazing. i dont wanna jinx it, but i may travel hahaha <33

im so excited i can barey contain myself.
im taking myself out to celebrate . shopping . dinner . gettin my nails done. hair . etc

its really hard to write a persuasive speech when you have no idea what your topic is.

fuck.

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more ( Read more... )