im nervous. for the holidays. well im nervous starting thursday.

alex comes home. i told him to prove to me by sunday that he loves me and that he doesn't like dalia. but the truth is, i know he won't. i KNOW it. so why do i keep having faith that he will? i keeep giving him chances and opportunities and he doesn't use them. he keeps doing what he ( Read more... )

 how can you do this to me... why would you do this to me...i thought you loved me...

i don't understand anything at all. and i just wish i could fall asleep and never ever wake up ever again.

i don't want to be in this situation anymore. i want things to be like they used to be.

i don't want to be here.

you're killing me.

I miss you. You need to come home, now. I want it to be friday. 
I don't like the wait. I don't like the distance. I don't like the lonliness.

So yeah, i don't even know what to say, I just feel like I have to say something...
I've been having a few down days.I had one absolutely fantastic day and then really down days that followed. 
Sunday Alex, madre, padre, my brother and I went to pine point then Bugaboo Creek. It was an amazing day.  Beach, food, boyfriend, and family. : ) 

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I went for a run/walk today. And anyone who knows me, knows that running and me is not normal. And as I was running I was trying to figure out why I hated it so much ( Read more... )

So scratch that last one, I was kinda freaking out.

So this weekend was a good one. : )

Friday Alex and I went to the beach, again. And we walked on the rocks even though I thought I was going to fall in and die... But I actually went to the end and we sat on a rock and just talked. It was so pretty and amazing to be there with him. And then I had ( Read more... )

So I've been freaking out today... And Its over anything. And all I need to do is cry and go take a nap. But I just found out that I have a lab report due tomorrow that I forgot about, and about 150 pages of reading to do, so no nap for tonight. I pretty much suck.

Today was RT day. And it sucked miserably. My RT ignores me. They create a circle ( Read more... )

I've been in a really weird mood lately, one minute I'm happy, but most of the time I'm just down. And I feel worse because I'm making others feel bad because I'm down ( Read more... )

Its sunday, and vacation is almost over. And I want it to last for another week. month. year.  I'm sick of the whole school thing. And I have at least six more years to go. yay?
I'm also supposed to be doing my science lab report and I'm not. It's due tomorrrow...

Vacation was alright. Then not so good.

I don't really remember too far back...

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Well, well. Today is Valentines Day. And it is the first Valentines Day that I have had a valentine.  And my valentine is better than yours. : )

And Alex is the first person who has bought me flowers ever. : )    and I enjoyed them very much. They are on display in my kitchen right now.  He is so sweet.  I don't deserve him.

My weekend was alright.

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