it's been a while ( Read more... )

is it worth it?

you have little to no chance
but yet you are so out going it doesn't really matter
he was an ex-crush - friend not over him
fit really well
he's older
dont know if anything will happen
will see him everyday
the courgae is not the roblem, but i realize things have consequences
so what do i do?

i think i'm coming close ( Read more... )

any body ever get that feeling that they aren;t really there? i feel like i am just faking my life. the things i actually want i dont have. the things i have i dont really want.

i am happy but i dont feel happy.

confused? me too

i guess i should update. i feel like i'm doing enough with my time - i know i'm not - i need a job or else a guarentee about the winter class ( Read more... )

okay i will confess i told a perticular guy how i felt about him. This was about 4 damn months ago. I never expected anything to happen i just had to tell him but now everything is werid. No were not great friends but i'll catch him staring at me sometimes ( Read more... )

i just cant get rid of him you'd think after not speaking for two months akwardness would have left us. nope maybe we can figure this out.

we are our own greatest enemy.

sometimes i feel like i only have half of my body filled. i mean i have dreams and a future and responsibilities but i dont have a right now. try as i might i am not part of the drama of everone elses life. some may say thats a blessing but i say it is boring and leaves me meaningless.

have u ever felt like sometimes the world would be exactly the same without you? no one is quite connected to you, everyone knows of you but no one needs you ( Read more... )

this morning my dad found my brother passed out in the pole building with two crack pipes in his pocket. i believe him, he didn't do anything, i mean he maybe stupid but he's not an idiot. we spent most the morning/afternoon talking about going to europe. i hate my family