<3 It is a Thursday morning, and the two sections of Ballet III are combined for 9:00 class in the big studio. Even better, Steve walks in instead of MM. I quickly get up off the floor, where I have been patiently stretching my tight-as-hell turnout muscles, as he drags in a trash can and a box of Kleenex. Some vicious virus has been sweeping ( Read more... )

I hate that there is no honesty in ballet, not even in the steps themselves unless you do them perfectly ( Read more... )

I feel I must write. Just to stay sane, I need to let the words bleed from my mind ( Read more... )

Love. I've only realized that I had it now that I have no one. I loved Ben. I think I did love Eric too, but he's not far enough removed for my hindsight to be 20/20. I know I loved Ben because even now, over a year after we broke up, I miss him. He wasn't The One. I'll know. I didn't feel it at the time because he never loved me back. But ( Read more... )

I figured I would go ahead and write my last entry as a minor. I'm going to be eighteen tomorrow. How insane is that? Umm, completely insane. Mixed feelings.

+ I'm sooooo ready to get out of here. To get away from my family (not that I don't love them), to stop dealing with small-fry high school shit, to finally, finally be able to treat ( Read more... )

Started Bluebird pas de deux with Ethan today. And...it's going a lot better than I thought it would. I think it's really going to suit us well ( Read more... )

Eric and I had fun this weekend! On Saturday I met him and his sister at Great Lakes and we saw Pan's Labyrinth (it didn't get any less creepy this time around). We got some pizza and sat down in the food court, and he took a dollar bill and started to fold something. He told me not to look, and when he was finished he took my hand and slid an ( Read more... )

This weekend was a blast. Until now, of course, as I'm staring at the pages of calc I didn't have time to finish during the week. Fuck ( Read more... )

I should be really happy. I mean, I am! But I don't know, it's kind of hard. I got my scholarship but I'm not done working. Calc is kicking my goddamn ass and my dad keeps finding MORE AND MORE AND MORE scholarship apps for me to fill out. I know, I know. Now it's all just money in my pocket. And maybe, if I get some, it'll be worth it ( Read more... )

This past week has been like a fairytale ( Read more... )