I move in 23 or so days...freaking out but not really cause it's going to be amazing. Packing is freaking me out. I have done five loads of laundry already and I still have a trunk full more to do. I've packed a trunk and a trunk-like suitcase full of clothing and I'm not done yet. Not to mention I have sorted through and am getting rid of a whole ( Read more... )

I can't sleep. There is so much going on in my head. I wish I could all just empty it out ( Read more... )

fuck you fuck you fuck you. God I just want my life back. I want that life I had. Damn it. I know I can never have it and I know you'll probably never speak to me again but fuck. Even if I just got one second just one minute to say good bye. To let go. Fuck that would make it all better. I'll just keep running. I'll run and run till I can run no ( Read more... )

I'm still so alone. I knew this trip was gonna be this way I just wish it wasn't this way. I wish you were home. I wish that you were with us. I wish that I didn't have to sleep alone last night. it just sucks. what if when you come home you things are drastically different? what if?

I just had the worst nightmare. I think the pills are giving me anxiety when I sleep. Maybe the pills just hold off the anxiety till I'm sleeping. It was freaking intense and really freaking vivid. We all know who gives me anxiety and makes me worry about potential violence occurring. She was definitely in my nightmare ( Read more... )

In the end it really isn't going to matter. The way I feel will never change the facts. In the end no matter what none of this matters and I hate knowing that. I hate knowing that I will never mean as much. I hate knowing that the odds are against me. I hate knowing that in the end I'll probably lose again. What is the point of keeping going? There ( Read more... )

i feel like shit. i'm in a funk and i'm not quite sure of how to get out of it. it just sucks. i hate this feeling. i need something. anything to make this go away ( Read more... )

I made it through another year. every birthday things seem a little better each time. I had an amazing birthday day. my best friend Casey called me right at midnight. then yesterday(my actual birthday) I went over to her place because we were supposed to go apartment hunting and she had made me a cake and a card. amazing, right? yeah that's what I ( Read more... )

yeah I'm your daughter and you're cutting me off completely because I want to live somewhere other than your home. no I guess I'm not your dependent any more. fucking bullshit. fucking bullshit that is all it is. I know plenty of people that are in college that do not live in dorms who are still dependents of their parents. plenty of people whose ( Read more... )

life it's changing fast. it's here. I'm making decisions and going forward really quickly. I only have a short time to get everything together ( Read more... )