Nevermind. Every time I think about it I feel sick. I know what Joe used to go through now and knowing that makes me feel even sicker about it all. I'm trying so hard to just concentrate in class and fill my time and be busy so I don't have to be paranoid. I think I'm going to get screwed over in the end, like usual. We'll see. I might just have an ( Read more... )

First week back has been great. School and dance have been good, I am going to be so busy. Me and John are better than ever and I feel awesome with him.

i can't wait to go back to richmond! 11 days!

im back in buffalo for another 4.5 weeks or so. i need to keep myself super busy so the time flies. i miss john a lot already. i hope im not being annoying, i just really miss him. i have feelings for him like i havent had in a while and im afraid he doesnt reciprocate them and that his will dwindle over these 5.5 weeks. buffalo drags me down so ( Read more... )

its been nice being in buffalo not with my family. toms been a jerk so i dont know what im going to do over christmas. my nieces and new nephew are beautiful and i wish i could see them grow up everyday and be there. my brothers didnt come and probably wont come at christmas. my family issues are just as strong. i dont really miss richmond that ( Read more... )

I met John's parents today. We all went to brunch. They were super nice and cute. I didn't feel super awkward with them like I normally do with adults. They brought him new bedding and stuff and its soo comfy. Haha. Me and him are official nnnow and it's great but I'm going to miss him over thanksgiving and then over christmas :(

It seems like everyone gets sick of me within a few weeks. I really am not a fan of myself at all so I guess I see why no one else is a fan of me.

my anxiety is so bad...msfkndfjn

I can't wait until Thanksgiving, 14 days until I'm in buffalo.

I absolutely despise girls that give everything up for a relationship. This was my problem last year with Marcy and me and her are barely friends now. I cannot deal with this again. Sure, it's nice to be with your new guy all the time and sure your classes are closer to his house, but you still have friends. You still have homework and other shit ( Read more... )