I hate feeling this way.
I don't know what to do.
It's not enough to be a serious problem.
But it's still there.
I can't ignore it.
But acknowledging it means I've become exactly what I don't want to be.
I want to have control.
But I don't want to be controlled by artificial means.
I don't know where to draw the line.
It's not black or white: that ( Read more... )

I almost cried today for no reason..yea ( Read more... )

ok. someone had this as a bulliten on myspace, but I figured if I reposted it there I'd either get no answers or creepy answers.lol. So fill it out and repost on yours ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in awhile. which is probably good. I need to waste my time less and accomplish more. but I feel the need to write.

( emotional Lizzie )

I finally saw Holly again. only slight awkwardness.lol. it was good and I hope we can hang out again and more etc. and we totally have to because there's an animated zoo movie that I have no idea what the name is that we have to see. I'm excited already. I'm not sure I can wait for it.lol

I really miss my twin and we totally need to hang out this ( Read more... )

please do it, it will make me smile, or make me hate you, but either way, w/e.

( hhhhhmmmmmm..... )

( and this is probably to much info, but... )

Tonight I ( Read more... )

I had my first official clubbing experience on thursday :) Kimmie, Jessica, Annie and I went to Club Alchemy...we all got hit on :) , I finally met Ferid, I got to see Adam for the second time..and this time he was sober, we danced on a stage..good times. The only bad thing is almost getting molested by drunken men and seeing half naked girls ( Read more... )

calling people when you're drunk is a bad idea.lmao

I can't believe Ben texted Kim..what a fag.

So Kim and I came to the conclusion that we shouldn't have drank anything and we probably shouldn't get drunk again..but we all now thats not gonna happen.

but yea..last night was fun, and now its the weekend :)

have a fan-flippin-tastic weekend