After Tuesday evenings event, I just feel utterly and completely betrayed. People I would call brothers would treat me like meat for the vultures. I have never put my morals up for someone else's pleasure. I feel partly to blame for not knowing better and knowing these so called "brothers" would have treated me so poorly. The worst part they never ( Read more... )

Is it the rain, is it the feeling of longing, is it knowing there is something greater for me out there? For a few days now, I feel down. I am not sure why. I know I have my doubts and gut feelings about things. As much as I try not to dwell on them, it seems that the only reaction I can stir up is dwell. I need to start school and worry about my ( Read more... )

Oh... Where to begin, probably, why I am so angry. I think it has to do when I was younger always having to be the best at everything. Thank you Mom and Dad for that little tick of mine. Watching the women last night they were amazing. Even Alicia I give them mad props for being able to make it this far and competing, while there teammates are ( Read more... )

I feel this wave of sadness coming at me lately. I feel as though I dont even know myself; Who am I really. I was happy today; that feeling did not last very long. I feel that the past 22 years of my life have just been a lie. The person who I think I am. I am not. So what does that leave me. I have this overwhelming urge to be sick. My head hurts ( Read more... )

So why does it seem that lately I cant catch a break? Is this some kharmic bite in the ass; for something I have done in a past life? Cause honestly shit has been going down after my noisy ass mother made such a huge ordeal about me smoking pot! Honestly, people need to get with the times and grow the fuck up! I feel that I am living in this make ( Read more... )

So why do I usually fall for the one I shouldnt?! Ugh really you would think I learn... On the other hand I also like to over anaylze everything my situation is just quite confusing-- as if I dont anything else to worry about. What the fuck honestly things should just be clear cut sometimes would save us all some sanity

I find each new day interesting. As if each new day is a gift and when I pull the ribbon and tear the paper its that tingly feeling you get as you open a Christmas gift. But lately the days seem dreary yet the smile on my face is still stuck on as if it was super glued. I never had thought the people I have met in the last year would have affect me ( Read more... )

So tomorrow I have my second interview with this marketing firm. I am pretty excited not only because this is the beginnings of what I want to do but also that I will be financially secure to get out of my house. On the downside its a full time job =( But like i said before its great experience! Oh N.M I kinda still have feelings and it sucks bad ( Read more... )

Today kinda sucked especially cause im kinda single.... or am I single ughhh life can never be straight forward can it. My emotions are pretty random these days especially who I like it bounces well guess its good while im young. Right now I should be finishing my project but I cant concentrate to many things on my head!!! AOHSOKAHS AMEN

After having an amazing weekend in Tallahassee I come back to dull Palm Beach. I wish I was somewhere else maybe not Tallahassee but definitely not in my house. It sucks being here but you have to play with the cards you are dealt with. School is ok I just want to relax in my own place without worrying about crazy family members