Ever since I can remember I have had this hatred a grudge against my father. He use to be an alcoholic and use to hit my mom and I remember he would verbally abuse my sisters and I. He would instead of spanking me kick me when I was young making me pee myself. My mother and father till this day fight like two male lions over scarce food it seems ( Read more... )

So I am putting my X-Large Jersey on the wall and getting into the Small one again. Fuck Jared and his subway subliminal messages. I am going to get back to the gym and do whats right!!!! What is that you ask. We'll I'll tell you!!! Im going to look sexy so yall can stare at me =) haha plan of action starts tomorrow and every 15th day im going to ( Read more... )

Enough is enough!!! I am so fucking tired of bull shit people, drama, and fucking shit! Ive had enough of my own drama and fucking crap to deal with to deal with anyone elses. I am so tired of me worrying about everyone else and not myself. Its time to liberate myself from this oppression of people and biases. I love my family and my friends but I ( Read more... )

I feel like today I was judged for the people I hang out with. I was dicked over pretty bad today for that. I really am truly upset at todays events.

I honestly truly hate being so down. But it feels like the only thing going on in my life is that. Why? I think I surround myself but some people who are cause drama and I cant be around them. So its time to cut the ties with those people. Yea one person in particular I wish we couldve had more. But during it all I understand why there isnt ( Read more... )

I just want to yell FUCK YOU to some people. That wouldnt be very classy of me though.

So sometimes theres those people you meet and cant get them out of your head. Shit its the most fucking annoying thing that has ever happened to me. Not because I am attracted but because the person is so immature and talks crap. Geez I thought people in college were a little more mature but I guess I put to much assurance on people thinking they ( Read more... )

I sit and ponder why I cant be back up north were my life was so much easier and peaceful. I miss the changing seasons being a kid and trying to catch fireflies. The simple things I grew up on. I miss seeing the snow going outside and my friends being there. This longing feeling is eating away at me.

Its ridiculous not to count on any of my family members to upset me before or on my birthday. Im human I bleed too! Do they not understand that? I guess not there are times where I just wish not to continue to give in to the sporadic torture they feel they need to afflict on me for their amusement or well being. I am not willing to give up any more ( Read more... )

Help I have done it again.... I have been here many times before ( Read more... )