it's been a long time since i've updated here, but it seems silly and rude to gush about how wildly in love i am. how i can't believe what an amazing person adam is and how grateful i am to have met him. i don't really feel like it's appropriate to share how blissfully happy i am with him. so i'll leave it at that.

i'm so happy :)

i was just thinking about peter, and how he loved to play "mariah" on his harmonica for all of us. and i was wondering if that song rang just a bit too true for him, that he was a lost and lonely man, without a star to guide him. and that his song should have been an indication to us of how alone he really felt, enough to take his own life. ( Read more... )

1) What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
(Directly copied from Zoe) Lived in the woods, slept in a tent, camped, hiked
(My own contribution) Went to california, bagged a peak, slept out under the stars, skinny dipped(!), built a wall out of rock, lived at 9000 ft, saw a 3000 year old juniper tree...

2) Did you keep your New Years' ( Read more... )

enter cliche end-of-the-year reflections ( Read more... )

torn between wanting to stay & wanting to go & worried it will be the wrong decision either way

[brian andreas]

(exactly how i felt when i was leaving san fransisco...)

as a winter storm swirls around me, i've got a brainstorm swirling deep inside. my resolutions for this year don't have much to do with losing 10 pounds or quitting a bad habit (when have they ever, really?) but they do have a lot to do with making plans and sticking to them. i've been in rochester long enough to have settled and have wound down ( Read more... )

today is the most outright gloomy day ever, and that's surprising because it's about 30 degrees warmer than it's been in two months. but the sky is gray, the land is gray...."the ocean is gray"....sing with me, ani.

listening to bon iver makes me sad. and reading about zoe moving off again to montana makes me sad. :( i wish i could visit her more ( Read more... )

I've been looking in churches and looking in bars
Thought that I saw you in the oncoming cars
It was your reflection cast off by the light
And into the sky of this dark city night

And I thought that I saw you in the tallest of trees
Swayed back and forth in the mid-autumn breeze
When the leaves reddened and left too
I knew then that it wasn't you

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i can't stop thinking about mountains. i can't help but wish that i was hiking up a huge hill at 8:00 in the morning. i wish i could open up the roof and look at the stars. i want more fresh air, i want more breezes and sunrises and cowboy coffee. i want to bathe in the freezing cold water of an alpine lake. i want to get dirty. i want to cuddle by ( Read more... )

i don't know how long i can do this, he said.
i think the universe has different plans for me
& we sat there in silence & I thought to myself
that this is the thing we all come to            & this is the thing we all fight
                  & if we are lucky enough to lose, our lives
        become beautiful with mystery again & I sat there
silent ( Read more... )