i really dont mean to bitch so much. i just get caught up in all the negative shit in my life. i wish things could just work more towards my favor than against it. i just get this feeling that the glimer of hope that i see on the horizon will fade away and i will be lost yet again. i keep looking for hope, but sometimes it isnt always there. those ( Read more... )

so the trip was alot of fun. and ive got some stories to tell but ask me the next time you see me. but on a more serious note ( Read more... )

i commandeered a ship of the fleet. these days i am now sailing under different colors with a new ship. a larger vessel that greatly surpasses my previous ship in every way. no long will i be so easily spotted on the horizon by those who are looking for me. i blend into the deep blue and take great pride in her. she doesnt have a name yet, but that ( Read more... )

there is just so much to say i dont even know where exactly to begin, but ill try anyways ( Read more... )

FUCK YEAH!!!! i got HOPE. apparently all that bullshit Berry College was feeding me about me losing HOPE was not true. and basically im getting another semester of college for free. kick ass! im going out drinking tonight... except i cant cause of work. but one of these days im going out drinking to celebrate cause this is awesome news

ever know exactly what to say, but you arent really sure how or when to say it. thats where i am now, and it seems to be true on multiple levels

being patient is so F-ing hard. like i dont want to just sit around hoping for the best even though technically thats all i can do at the moment. but i also dont want to jump the gun and miss my chance. one thing is for sure. the suspense is killing me

well it is quite late. 2nd midnight movie of my life. it was interesting ya no getting the old pirate crew together. it was good, but i hate those climatic movies that only leaves you with questions and shit... ugh ARGGG now im going to have to wait a whole year. SOB ( Read more... )

i remember when summmer was a time to do nothing but hangout with friends and have as much fun as you possibly could in those two and a half months. now its cluttered with all kinds of time consuming things (or at least mine is). work, rest, more work, hangout with friends when you can make some time, fit in something really cool every now and then ( Read more... )

ok so a certain thing i was workig towards didnt exactly go the way i had hoped, but its ok. i have no regrets about it, and it just seemed to not workout. now i actually consider it better this way because something else has caught my attention. its great like i havent felt this way in a long time, but now i am horribly nervous. i just dont know ( Read more... )