i keep having this recurring state of that excited/scared feeling. like i feel excited to know that anything could happen whether its today or months from now, but at the same time it scares me cause it only natural to believe that there is no sense of when something could happen and whether or not that something is good. i am more excited that ( Read more... )

i know i like storms and everything, but days like today just blow. i mean like cloudy, crapy overcast is just not cool. so far i have done absolutely nothing...ugh and now i feel like i need to accomplish something

...lame

so im alittle drunk at the moment. im such a cheap drunk i seriously only had 4 beers, and i didnt eat dinner. sure that might be kind pathetic, but its also awesome cause i can save alot of money this way. anyways i love how in my own journal entries i speak in my own riddles that no one probably reallly understands except me. like the last 4 or 5 ( Read more... )

i feel like i am losing touch these days. like i have time for nothing any more. i mean i love my new job. the people are cool, and its a great job. but i am working all the time. and i feel like i missing out on tons of fun when i am at work sometimes. i barely get to hang out with my closest friends like the ones i used to see everyday. not to ( Read more... )

have you ever had that feeling
when you were so excited
you just cant wait for tomorrow

so you try to go to sleep
just to make the time go by
but instead you sit up
staring at the clock
not knowing why it slowed down

sometimes you bitch about the times when it seems like there is nothing to do because you feel bored. like you lack that interesting thing to do at the moment. but in retrospect, those times when you may just be chillin with whoever can actually be better than doing the atlernative. just because you are bored doesnt mean you are without good ( Read more... )

i got a few of those moments where i may have made a mistake, but i didnt realize it until much later in the game. now im just hoping to make up for it. i just have to play my cards right from now on, but i kind of suck at that so this may be alittle tricky

the last few nights i havent slept very well. like its just my head cause my body is exhausted. so i figure ill take some nyquil tonight, but anyways i got some good news. i think my bad luck is starting to run out, and im really excited about it. HOORAY

over the last 2 years at J Christopher's i can count the number of people who visited me on one hand, and i can ount how many times each of those people came more than once on the other hand. i really hope now that i have a night job. i can break that record...

im alittle worried these days. like i am afraid im wasting my time or something. and i guess im not sure what to do exactly. but the thing that really gets me is i see all these goods things happening to my friends, and dont get me wrong, i am happy for them. but it just reminds me that nothing good is happening to me. i cant even remember the last ( Read more... )