dear diary ( Read more... )

new icons wanted. pictures being taken. new layout equals new icons. working, work in progress. week has been casual nothing. nothing really accomplished, except for the expected upload of the song Backtracking the grind for the radiohead sampling idea. playing slowly with reptiles website. waiting for a sunny day. i'm sorry i'm not here for you as ( Read more... )

i get the feeling that i should be somewhere else. smiling, laughing. it came like a sudden shift of weirdness watching tv.
anxious feeling in my stomach telling me that i'm in the wrong place at this moment of time. someone's looking for me.
and it's creepy.

holidays started early with a bunch of chewing. i did not go in to work on saturday or sunday and that may get me into hot water because i am going to officially be on 8 days off starting tomorrow. late night sounds startling me, playing a game until all hours of the next day, there was no energy left to go. a few times caught by drifting thoughts ( Read more... )

i can make layouts?
apparently.
which means i have a new layout. mojofilter helped out with that comment link thing that just always came out wrong.. i was sick of the blues. today, i call one point five day, in that i have roughly one point five days left until vacation. one week's worth, going to get sammerine to dye my hair, and then the following ( Read more... )

the last day that i dont go to work ( Read more... )

this is a reminder to myself of two things:

A.You're going to New York in 2005. Meet some old friends you've never met.

2.Your pre-planned flight to the Bay area has been delayed because they won't give you the time off. So, work out a plan to go in early 2004.

make strings. tie around hand. ( listen to gord. )

( Rep-Tile Re-Lated )

i've been fooling myself into thinking it'll get better, the pain will go away. but it's not. it's getting worse. unbearably so. i'm back where i started.. right here. and so you wont find me online, typing. perma-away.. until something gives, until i have to continuously wear a brace, take a leave of abscence from work, whatever...i'll be lurking ( Read more... )

it has never been so dizzingly hot ( Read more... )