go to fucking bed. roman. [it needed to go somewhere besides my head]

[lofidelityinred]

40 or 50, or did you slip 2 more in there somewhere
oh well, does it really matter
you know thats not why youre awake
what matters is
the point is its 6:18 am and youve got an hour and 12 minutes of hope left
you decide to just give up and play innocent bystander to your thoughts

Comments

[crashthestatic]

it appears im more masochistic than id once thought.
which is why im continuing to work where i do.

its all a pointless waste.

and i dont even get to see you until later.

[lofidelityinred]

not everything

[mokeysvagina]

...

[lofidelityinred]

... as in.... what the hell?
my thoughts exactly.
but basically, the you is me..as you probably figured out.
and the rest are my thoughts, as they came out.

[mokeysvagina]

no. i was speechless.

[lofidelityinred]

i hope not in a disturbed way

[whippycracker]

My life is exactly like that right now. I am always awake and thinking. I wish I could think one thought at a time as well. I also wish I could not write backwards. I get so distracted that I will buy a coffee (coffee helps me sleep too somehow, probably because I am so addicted) and pay for it, and then think I stole it because I don't remember paying. I have to ask people. Buying coffee is like an automatic process for me, it's like breathing or walking, I don't need to focus on it while I do it because my body knows the way.
I know what you mean about the whole sex thing too. I wish I could de-monogify myself so actually having meaningless sex would be alright.

That whole thing was strangely familiar to me, all of it. It's nice and not nice to know that someone has similar problems.

[lofidelityinred]

hahah.
im not really laughing at you at all
just with your last sentence because i said that to someone last night.
and the coffee thing.
i drink coffee like its water, and literally probably more than i drink water.

when i wrote this i wasnt at all depressed or anything, im actually quite well recently. it was just.. the way my mind works, drawn out step by painful step in slow motion.

[whippycracker]

oh i know, my mind is the same. damn, i thought i was unique in that way. guess not. i am sort of glad to know that i am not the only one.

[champion_liz]

you're a distracted sort. like me

[lofidelityinred]

liz
i want to respond but all day i havent been able to come up with the words that i want to say
and when i have thought of them, im not in an opportune place to just sit down and write out a response.
and right now, ive been up for a few days too many
and im probably not making any sense, or maybe i am. i dont know
anyhow
so im responding later.
i just want you to know that i do relate. yes.

[champion_liz]

no response necessary

it was just something you made me think of
thats all

[ozmaisgood]

roman
i am here to drop my hello. i masochistically read all of your thoughts...but i will spare you a gigantic blah comment that really belongs in my own live journal about how i can relate LiKe sewWwWw MuCh cuz..man who can stand those.
anyways...been thinking about ya.
remember when you lived with me for a leetle bit and we ate lots of cake and pizza?

[lofidelityinred]

yes and cheez ITS.

[champion_liz]

mmm...sorry?

[ozmaisgood]

hey now i was just kidding. let's not e-bicker