I smashed Robin's fingers in the door as I dropped her off at Tim's house. What a great way to start her first day there. Not only did she sob because of her fingers, she clung to my skirt and screamed as I walked away. ASSHOLE MOM. I feel so terrible. I am trying to get work done but mostly I'm just worrying about her :(.

of course holly wd pick the day of a car trip to wake at 445 :P. (nak) christine is here and she and i are driving the girls down to visit my parents in kansas city. i'm nervous, of course: the longest i've driven with both is 2.5 hrs and that was 3 months ago. this drive is 5 hrs :/. we are going to ignore naptime (at our own peril) and try to get ( Read more... )

If I'm on the edge of some big life-changing decision or shift that will be huge and good. I feel so burned out right now and it feels like something is brewing.

I've been thinking quite a bit about religion and faith since we started considering a move back to Tulsa, which is predominantly evangelical/protestant/Christian fundamentalist. It's brought this issue to the forefront of my mind, whereas living in the midwest (where everyone is way too polite to inquire about something so personal!) has let it ( Read more... )

I'm really pissed about it, too. And its just a bonus on top of a night when Holly wanted a boob in her mouth 24/7. So, hey. Did I ever say something dumb like Holly was a different or better sleeper than Robin ( Read more... )

... because I feel like a total failure in every way today. Holly got me up at 4:45. I hoped for something like a nap, but the power blipped off and on a dozen times and then a bunch of trains moved through. Have I mentioned the heat? We have a heat index of 110 today, and a dew point of 80. I was feeling wussy about it, but looking at the numbers ( Read more... )

Went to the doc earlier this week for a checkup and to talk about getting an IUD. I'd heard iffy things about this doc (gave bad BFing advice) but she's convenient to our house so I went with her anyway. I kind of liked her, she was nice and I felt like she was good at flagging potential problems. She asked me a lot about the fatigue I experience ( Read more... )

amazing talks w/ b today have me feeling REALLY POSITIVE AND HOPEFUL. maybe some exciting changes soon. more later!!

How do you work out the "division of labor" in your relationships? Who does what around the house/for the family? Especially if one or both work full time?

Great naps yesterday = lousy morning today? Robin up at asscrack of dawn. Holly nursed a ton last night. Back hurts. But c'est la vie.

I read TIME's list of top blogs and now my google reader has 400 new items for me to read. Kind of loving Apartment Therapy right now, even though have no $$ to do that kinda stuff, and my place isn't cool at all. ( Read more... )