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Well today is a much better and generally happier day! Went to the docs yesterday who has doubled the happy pills. Im not totally happy about this as I tend to get insomnia on a larger dose. Boooooo, no coffe or cola for me! Anywho, I think I just managed to pull myself together yesterday. I know you should never say that to another depressed ( Read more... )

Ive rung in sick for the rest of the week now. Spoke to my line manager and she just said we shall be panicing as allways but get youself right. She said I can do half days or just admin or whatever suits really. Im going to the docs tomorrow as well to see about upping my dose. I feel a little better now. At least I have a few days to establish a ( Read more... )

Well, here I am again. At home on a work day. I did try to get up again this morning but I kept getting really anxious. I didnt even like the fact that it was dark. Strange for me as im not normally scared of the dark. I actually couldnt get myself out of bed until I could see daylight. Just felt horribly anxious about facing the world. Everything ( Read more... )

Well I have had to call in sick today. Not a good day for me at all really. I had no sleep really last night and then I just couldnt face work this morning. I just couldnt get myself out of bed. This happens to me sometimes. I guess its all part of the depression thing. I then just sent a quick text to work and stayed in bed until 12 noon. I felt ( Read more... )

Well the tree is up! The christmas tree that is. Much enjoyed doing it this year. Made me feel more festive and Ad likes it too. I think Im looking foward to christmas more this year. Last year was kind of surreal coz I was either having terrible anxiety attacks or prozac related mania moments! I like seeing people at christmas or going out and ( Read more... )

Adz doing the washing up and Im on th net! A lady of lesiure moment. Whagt would everyone do if they didnt have to work? How would you entertain yourselves I wander? I would probably have a spotless house coz I think I would spend all my time cleaning it! Not washing up though, I loathe washing up. Dont know why as I super love cleaning. I have two ( Read more... )

We have booked a toastmaster for the wedding! My Dad was propper impressed with this guy that we met at a wedding fayre yesterday so he booked him just like that! Its kind of got me a bit excited about the wedding again and makes it seem less ages to go! Also spoke to some stationers about invites and such which seemed rather promising. Drooled ( Read more... )

Does anyone ever feel truly happy and content any more or is that a feeling confined to childhood? Not to say that I am on a total downer or anything, I think Im just a major worrier. Theres always something going on in my head. Some silly niggling thought or other! I tried to come off the prozac recently but it went rather wrong. I had Physical ( Read more... )

WEll, its official! I am now a bride to be! We paid the deposit today and had another look around the place. Ad saw it for the first time and was highly impressed. He particulaly liked the ducks! I feel really excited now. Its such a good feeling knowing we are taking the first steps towards this hige event and towards the rest of our lives ( Read more... )