tonight was the wake for shannon. it was really sad. i went with lauren. i felt weird about going because i wasn't best friends with shannon, but i am glad i went. i got there and looked at the photoes. i signed the guest book. then i went into the room and saw her in the casket from far away and began to cry. lauren and i had already decided not ( Read more... )

My new year's resolutions ( Read more... )

i hate my school.
i hate my work.
i hate putting so much crap on my plate. i'm too stressed out.
and i'm too damn sad.

yup. that's an update.

happy birthday to wonderful phillip. today was his 20th birthday. i got to spend a good amount of time with him today which made me really happy. we got some lunch and did a little birthday shopping. tonight i went to his house and had dinner with him and his mom, her boyfriend, his grandmother and his great-grandmother. that made me feel so happy ( Read more... )

i cannot cannot cannot wait to go back to school. okay, yes i can. but i wish i was just living there instead of here. i don't miss the work (oh it's soooo tough) or the food. i don't miss the showers and i don't miss the...coldness and loneliness of school. but i do miss the people. and i do miss the atmosphere for the most part. i do miss seeing ( Read more... )

my life has turned into driving and work, driving and work. occasionally i go out, usually with phil, to see a movie or to hang out with other people. i have only really seen laur and manda, lisa and liz a little as well. i work, i get up in the morning and go to work, and work and work all day, and go home. my feet rarely hurt anymore, i guess ( Read more... )

what an odd day. i woke up and watched infomercials for quite a long time. it's amazing how some people can make a personal blender seem like the best invention of twentieth century. eventually i went to go upstairs and i saw my mom, sister and brother just standing out in the driveway, all facing the same way, apparently looking at something. so i ( Read more... )

i'm scared of thunder and lightning. not so much the thunder. the lightning is exciting and thrilling to watch but terrifies me. i'm so afraid of getting electrocuted. no one ever reassured me that it wouldn't happen, so i'm always scared of it ( Read more... )

i'm mad at myself. i slept through my praxis test this morning because my alarm clock never went off. i don't know why not, i set it and then i set the second one just in case i set the wrong one...but neither went off. damn stupid alarm clock. now i have to wait and take it again in august, it's not that bad, but i just hope it doesn't screw me ( Read more... )

yeah, that's me. i work and things get stolen. i work and i have to cancel babysitting to do so. what happened to my life? my feet are sore from standing all day but it's definitely a different work than babysitting. babysitting is tough and annoying and long and tiring. i'm not saying work is not tough at all, it's just a different tough. ( Read more... )