Fuck i havent written in this thing for a while. fuck the update. life has been gay. Most my friends moved away. one of my closest, florisa, hates me. James and sabrina went to mjc. Good right...no. Ill i get is the same annoying shit every day. At first i can take it. I didnt really give a fuck. Someone makin fun of me whats new. now its like ( Read more... )

I love you.i want you. i love seeing you. i love talkin to you. i love how you make me feel. I love your smell. If i tasted you id love that too ( Read more... )

You can write about it as much as you want. you can think about it as much as you want. You can cry over it and die over it. But if it is never spoken then nothing will happen. I want to say something... to someone anyone just so it feels like i have this weight somewat relieved. But i cant. It will ruin everthing i have. But wat i have is built on ( Read more... )

liying to ourselfs is all we do all day. Try to make us feel better. Keep our sanity intact. Some of us just except wat reality is. which is not very nice. Living past our time of worth is a "gift" from modern medicine. Makes people happy doesnt it. what is happy? Some of never feel it. Its the feeling i had in kindergarden i think. It has a smell ( Read more... )

It suks knowing that your ugly. It suks worse when you think that you arent then later realize you are. It suks even more if you do that repeatedly. Sad days happen alot. tommrow will be. How much fun. Cant wait.Yes!!!

What happens when i run out of them. They cant stand me for very long. I just keep up my barriers and they grow sick of them. I use to blame my parents for me having no connection with them. But it was me who kept them away. It was me who kept them far away. I know that now. I thought i was so social. But it was just a lie. Fuck. I have to change ( Read more... )

Im goin insane. and i havent even reached the hard part of life. Funny huh? God i love this place. yea right. Im always dragged along for a shitty ride. Im on a tight leash. Quite fun ( Read more... )

Why the fuck do i feel left out????? WHy do i feel like i could of had somthing great but i always let it pass me by. Im to afraid of taking risk. Im a pussy. I am afraid of getting hurt. All the time. What is wrong with me. Why cant i just let myself go and not think about all the thinks that could go wrong. And what i am suppose to do afterwards ( Read more... )

Im so bored there. I want to do something.Or someone whatever. Either or. Yea im already tired of this

Owwww it hurts so much. The constant burning. I put ice on it to numb the pain only to realize i got frost bite. The dead tissue flows in my body. Slowly but surely killing me. We do this to try to make things right. It gets rid of the pain for a while. But most the time it comes back but alot worse. How can we treat such burns. Waiting them out ( Read more... )