i never drove down the roads of my youth, and here i am 10 years older. trying, trying to reclaim the days i never had. i never had. and now its, 5 years later. later tonight, here i am trying to give forgiveness. we can all forgive, if we try hard enough, i cant try that hard. here we lay again, just waiting for your plane. last night, i swear i ( Read more... )

other men; are better than me. other boys, have more to give. there is no one as beautiful; there is no one as pure, you bring me, something so, so....there arent words, there isnt anything. any thing. you make me miss singing. singing to you, as you try to sleep, knowing when i wake, you wont be there....your bed sounds so good, so hurry up, so ( Read more... )

i work as a bartender, i am sure everyone i even talk to knows that. and i am sure people i don't talk to, don't read this shit. being the daytime bartender is giving me an even more cynical view on people. maybe, i'll hear or see enough fucked up shit where i'd start writing again ( Read more... )

there's only so much to keep you alive; the drugs, by any name. the sounds of an old forgotten keyboard, echoing through a hallway you can never see. a broken trumpet sounds, it always sounds the best.

i have a job, it hurts my feet..i am drunk its 421...i should be up by 11...but if i stay up untill 6..i can watch the epl

a journal isnt about living its about dying, a last testament to the words you've never spoken, participation in a cosmic death, beliving that you can leave a piece that last forever, a con-job in the deepest sense, there is no one who will read these words, long after you've died, and the photos you take, do they keep you company, do the fill the ( Read more... )

and when you give up on writing shitty pseudo-poetry, there really isnt much to be said. (more to come)

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i just liked you more before you learned to be pathetic

oh the places you'll go; and the stories i could tell

there is nothing worth dying for anymore. there is no cause thats noble, there is no path that is enlightened; everything is anything. and sentences like that are the greatest define one thing with another. the only meaning is within something else. these thoughts, these ideas; they don't actually exist. you might convince a certian amount of ( Read more... )