my brother and his wife had a baby boy yesterday, and he is honestly the most beautiful thing i have ever seen, and i held him today while he slept for an hour or so and it was one of the most amazing things in my life, and i am just his uncle, and then when i told him i loved him i started crying. god i am a pansy. i don't know why i am making ( Read more... )

i've decided i hate liberals more than jesus freaks, at least jesus freaks are funny. liberals have no redeeming qualities.

i am house sitting for the next week, if anyone wants to hang out while i pretend to be an adult tell me, there is a lot of alcohol if any one is interested in that kind of thing.

i was going to write a post about my birthday and the things i've thought about today, and decisions, i've come too and what they are, but fuck it. i've been doing that for years now, and it always turns out the same way. so i am just going to post the greatest thing i have ever seen in my life, sometimes life is good, like watching this scene with ( Read more... )

realizations of how shitty my life is, isn't going to change anything. because i really need to stop being melo-dramatic, but its all i have left. everything i had going for more at one point or another is gone, and i don't do anything about it. i just sit here and stay up untill 10 in the morning filling my time with white noise. there's nothing ( Read more... )

its 6 in the morning and i am still up this is a common occurance recently. i need something to believe in.

four years to the day.

i've been trying to memorize the words as they come into my head as lay in my makeshift bed. i dont have the memory for that. i cant, and the only thing i write is people singing, and i dont know how to translate that, when i type a i e o u and sometimes y it doesnt look anywhere as awesome as freeez makes it sound, that michael rappaport looking ( Read more... )

there is a lot of words out there and i will never find the order they are supposed to go in. i have to accept this fact. theres a lot of things i have tried very hard not to accept. it's time i start, the television isn't going to give me any answers. or else i am going to pretend it isn't because i don't need an excuse to watch it even more. i ( Read more... )

i am not really sure what i do from here. i know i have to do the usual things i've said i needed to do for the past 6 years on here. this is so stupid. why wont i just already go ahead and do them. in other news the last way of contacting her, has been cut off. so now what do i do. i need to realize, i cant force her to talk or listen to me. i ( Read more... )