so i finally had this interview for this internship that i really wanted. so i spent weeks researching the company, every aspect, their affiliates, their mandates, exact numbers, researched companies they worked with and in what context, i read their blog, memorized parts of it even, read the whole site and every link in english and german just ( Read more... )

as i was sitting on the balcony, thinking over how great the last few weeks have been, I remembered that my visa runs out in 20 days.
SCHEISSE.

at least once every two weeks i open my live journal, read through my friends' posts, and then spend a moment or two trying to piece my own thoughts together coherently enough to be a post ( Read more... )

i know i will look back on these last 8 months as one, long weird dream. it's hard to say these goodbyes, but it feels good to reflect and remember and feel good about all of it with people i've grown to really care about.
tomorrow i move to berlin. it's cool that i get a second chance.

I know this won't work, but i feel like lying on the floor and screaming and crying until someone makes it better.
I tried it doesn't.

even the new is old already.

this band is dope even if you don't know german...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NYW6mgIN6Pk&feature=relatedhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=

please call me
i need to talk about this

everyday i keep making things worse for myself. And I don't want to take you with me. That's why I did it. I didn't think about it, i just couldn't take it, i realized that i'm not the person you fell in love with, that person is dead, and now i'm just this sad and empty thing with no love left to give and no capacity with which to receive it. i ( Read more... )

I AM VERY UNHAPPY.

i wish i could do something to make this easier on you...

:(

i'm moving to berlin in a few weeks. i will own that town, unbedingt.