I find no need to record my life. I am just another person in a big world where everything means nothing.

I can't help but feel the person i desire to be disappoints you. I get these feelings of foolishness for who i want to be. Everyone wants me to be someone else for them. And i am not the person they want me to be, so i am just discarded. I know that people love me- i really do. But i just wish someone saw beauty in me for who i really am. Not only ( Read more... )

I will not cry. It is only substance and i will not let you get the best of me. I love you. I know you don't want to talk to me, and are angry at me. Those are not my issues, those are yours. You have to deal with them to heal this relationship. I don't even mention it and still you hold my freedom against me ( Read more... )

I am not sure i have felt this empty in a long time. Complete and utter emptiness ( Read more... )

Two words. Fuck Fakers. Sorry for the vulgarity but i am so angry right now i could scream. If you don't want to be my friend- then don't. But for God's sake stop pretending. If you want to talk behind peoples back find someone else. Because you do it to me and i will not be there anymore ( Read more... )

It has been so long since i have heard either of their voices. But now i can. I am beginning to hear my conscience again. Their voices used to be so loud in my mind i thought i was going crazy. I had never felt closer to God and Satan tired everything to rip me away from Him. Now the voices are soft and subtle. Mostly i can only hear the evil ones ( Read more... )

First of all, i stopped taking my medication. I never really felt any different on it. But it has been almost a weak since i have stopped taking it. And for the past three days i have felt stoned. It is the most peculiar feeling. I really don't like it. But i refuse to take that medication any more ( Read more... )

This man is not a Christian and i do not accurately understand what have even believes in pertaining to this thing we call religion. But there were some awesome quotes in the article that i wanted to share. If anyone wants to read the article leave me a comment and i will give you the link ( Read more... )

From desperation to elation. Earlier today i was lost. I had made a decision- and knew this time there was no going back. No, it is not about what i do but who i want to be. I was talking to a friend yesterday and he said "don't be so hard on yourself you are still so young." And while i understand and give merit to this idea, it is not applicable ( Read more... )

I can't hear His voice anymore. When i talk or ask i feel as if my request just enters a black whole that never returns. Why is He the way He is? There are so many times i have just wanted Him to answer if only to show others His presents, yet there is no answer. There is nothing. I just want His presents to be so evident i want Him to be so active ( Read more... )