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Jasmin
I've been told that the only way that you can successfully solve a problem is to understand whats being asked and then taking the neccessary actions that are required in resolving the issue. I started asking myself that question after spending last night with Jasmin. She does something to me that no other girl has ever done which is truly inspire ( Read more... ) -
I protect what I love
I'm not a gangster, but a man who takes care business. Respect is everything, the only thing out here. If you don't have that, you can end up in a world of trouble in this neighborhood. We are all the same, we bruise and bleed the same, but then there are those who think they are better than other people. These are usually the people I end up ( Read more... ) -
Business
I haven't been able to sleep so well the last few days, reason being that I am up at this time writing in here. I guess you can say I've been up to the same old thing, just trying to survive and keepin the hussle up. There have been a a few new faces in the neighborhood and as a matter of fact I was with one of them today. Just like everyone else ( Read more... ) -
Past
I always knew that if I didn't get away from this city, it would surely destroy what ever good that I have inside of me. My morals and things that I held dear to me at one time feel like they have vanished. Most of my friends are drug dealers, not becaus they want to be but because its the only thing they know how to do to. Every night there is ( Read more... ) -
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I'm not sure exactly why I am writing in here, it's not often that I do these days. I suppose its just a way to help stimulate my mind before I start taking care of the massive amounts of homework that I have. The longer that I have been taking this major in Human Science, the more I realize that my true love is writing. It has always been easy for ( Read more... ) -
How can I say no?
If someone wants to get better, they first have to realize they have a problem. It took me awhile to realize that I wasn't just a moderate drinker, I was an alcoholic. I would try washing away all my problems with the bottle, but it drove me to a state of insanity if anything. While living in Hoboken with a friend of mine, the problem only became ( Read more... ) -
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I've been giving a lot a thought into things lately, particularly my life and the people who I decide to alow into it and be a part of it. I've always been able to make friends very easily, seems to happen quite often when I'm having a good day. I realize that the life I have been living isn't one which has any beneficial values. The constant ( Read more... ) -
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Last night was probably the last time I will ever get to party with Ace before he moves to Miami. It will be much better for him, there is nothing here in Jersey City anyway and he sounds as if he has everything planned once he leaves. Damn, I wish I could leave with him. Leave all this behind. Hah all this..as if there is much to really leave. ( Read more... ) -
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Its taken me awhile to realize how simple it is, but after living here for so long it has come to me quite naturally. There is a certain art to the "con," and for a long time I was to blind to see it. I've noticed that I tend to con people on a daily basis without even realizing it. Its very simple to put on a fake smile and talk of the things that ( Read more... ) -
Who knows
My mind has been going all over the place the last few days. I'm not sure if it's just a sign from the alcohol withdrawl or if its something else. School for the most part seems to be going ok, I wish I spent less of my time on the streets and more time in the class room though. It's the city I live in, I am a product of my environment. I'm just ( Read more... )