is still out of place. i am still as unsure as ever and i doubt it will ever change. this past weekend was... entertaining. i kind of got to know someone who seems pretty righteous but then i also met the biggest shit head in my life. all i really did was smoke weed and drink beer while everyone was being all couple like and shit. ugh. i dont know ( Read more... )

i am assured that there are few sane people left within the confines of my group of friends. things seem to be evr changing and the only constant in this whole equation is me. friends seem to be dissappearing or falling down a black hole that seems to be damn near impossible to pull them out of. some of my feelings have actually grown but they have ( Read more... )

has made much sense the past few days. i find myself developing feelings for something that hasnt been there in months. something i dont even know could happen. an instant that tore me apart may have been a blessing but it has led to where i am now. some events have happened since then that have changed my perception on it. maybe it was to show ( Read more... )

i ponder upon a million and one "what ifs?" and a million more "whys?". its never ending. i rest my head on a pillow that has had so many dreams and so many memories seap into it that i am reminded of them through osmosis when my eyes shut for those few, short hours i call sleep. im left to be on a side of a bed that once had a fond friend on the ( Read more... )

i saw q tip and common last night. that was one fo the most amazing shows ive ever seen in my life. q tip was fucking phenomanal. god damn. and common, jesus christ, i have never seen such a show. so much energy, so much emotion. it was utter insanity just being there ( Read more... )

ive been stuck in the house except for going to see doctors ( Read more... )

no lie ( Read more... )

so true ( Read more... )

hmmm. i dont know. wierd shit has happened this week. vicky and i are i guess talking again ( Read more... )

i graduated. ok. you know that ( Read more... )