i didn't really want to leave the party but i decided it was the right time to go.

did you ever stop to ask, "Are we just apart of human history? Where are we going from here?" And in asking that you realize, that ALL of thise is so much bigger then you. Everytime I bite into that burger, everytime my computer monitor stares into me, I stare into it. Everytime I want to hug that porcelin beauty in my house, I throw up, or ( Read more... )

why do i desire to work in a creative field when i find inspiration so fleeting? do i just want to break my own heart?

i did my homework tonight, which is the most writing i've done in weeks. i want this semester to end.

friends are moving further and further away. soon i will move away too. at least it was fun while it lasted.

before i could fall asleep last night i tried thinking of all things i missed and that would never be the same. i was awake for hours lost in nostalgia, on the brink of tears, reliving moments time had forgotten. someday i will write them all down for you, to remind you, of why i love you so dearly.

i saw a painting of the apocalypse on a street corner today. while i'm fascinated by the scene playing out before me, someone has the balls to ask me, are you in that painting? no, i answer. are you sure thats not you? i look harder at the painting. i realize it: i've fallen into a trap. its a political scheme. come to our meeting, abolish ( Read more... )

liquid courage ( Read more... )

sleep cycle has me trapped in a routine i need to break from ( Read more... )

tonight seemed to hit the mark just right. i hope i don't forget it.

home alone on this odd week waiting for the new year to happen already. the only thing i learned from last new year was that my life was headed down a destructive path. blackout drunk drive home. just like every night leading up the end of 2007. i don't anticipate that big of a change this year, but for some reason i feel like SOMETHING is going ( Read more... )

and that's the end of that chapter.