looking back through a friends collection of photos reminded me of nights long forgotten. how things really haven't changed that much and how what has changed has been for the better. a girl at work gave me a lot of advice about women today. all i could think while she was going on and on about how girls like when i ask them to suck my dick in ( Read more... )

most saturday nights i spend at work. making sure hungry people eat and drink themselves to hapiness. this saturday i was fortunate enough to have to myself. the first half of the day was completely squandered dreaming of things just out of reach and sadly, and the second half was also pretty much a waste. though i was able to get myself fed, my ( Read more... )

its been a month since my last entry. i remember i went to school but was a day early and i had jumped the gun ( Read more... )

the first day of school this semester. i would think that after having hundreds of "first-days" in my life that this one should be a breeze and i shouldn't be nervous. for some reason that logic doesn't work for me, because i am nervous. the sort of nervousness that isn't caused by "what-ifs". the kind that just is and will always be in similar ( Read more... )

the start of a good weekend. cheers to feeling the same way on sunday.

its been an interesting summer to say the least. not much has been accomplished but did things really need to be changed in the first place? i do feel a better sense of who i am which is good. what is bad is that its something i don't have control over. there are moments in which i watch myself fully aware of whats going on do things i wish i ( Read more... )

CHANGE

yesterday i climbed out of the rut in my head i've been stuck in for so long. i felt like me a few years ago. fearless and reckless. maybe its the way i felt just a few months ago. i'm not sure. its been long enough to forget that i had that part of me. and as quick as it came over me its gone again ( Read more... )

2 seconds before my phone begins to vibrate i can tell i'm about get a text message. kind of like how other electronics make that noise when they get the signal. i keep my phone in my right front pocket and it sometimes vibrates when my phone isn't even on me. it feels a little numb there too ( Read more... )

this summer i plan on taking myself somewhere i've never been before. and i will make the trip alone. as much as a love the people around me i wonder if i really do them any good. though i feel as if i'm harmless why do i seem to hurt people? somehow the situations i've gotten myself into have really ruined friendships i thought were once true ( Read more... )