aaaaaaa nononononono
i wrote and did not expect anything back
so when i got nothing, i just moved on and didn't care

Unfortunately, i got something today.

and-and-

ohiminsuchdeepmerde

100+55+200+100 kcal

9.6 kilos

15 more to go

21 days

day 16th

17,22,24,29,31,5

day 24th

chapter 6,7

flight number LO0027

Black as the devil, hot as hell, pure as an angel, sweet as love.

I'm not brave enough to write to him.

edit: July 16

Well. Maybe i am, after all.
so what, if there ws no response??
I definitely should stop reading ff.

so i'm sitting here studying french/ it's 1 a.m., and plus que parfait mixes with conditionel, and i suddenly come to realize that the dream is long over and will never be back, and summer does not bring relief. Hence, i am not able to do my homework which is to describe my dreams ang get a little freudian.
which somehow enforces me in my stupidity ( Read more... )

Nie wiem kim jestem.
And i'm not sure if i want to find out.

It's 4th of July ( Read more... )

great.
if i could only do it again, i wouldnt spoil it this time, no.
i promise.
so worthless.
piece of dust.
but why does the cleaner keep omitting me?

ta-dam, my dreams fall into pieces again
and again
and again

until the very precised
drop
will fill the goblet
of disappointments

Oh. Maybe its not that bad, afterrr all.

I miss simplicity.

The voices come from downstairs, I know, but in my mind they split and divide and hide in every corner ( Read more... )

I fail to ignore the feeling in my heart. Not quite missing her, because i never really missed anybody, not quite feeling homesick nor lonely. Just a bitter acceptation of a home empty and getting dirty until i clean it, food not ready until i do it. I dont call everyday like i used to. I guess its because i cant stand the feeling of envy that i ( Read more... )