Scratch that. I relapsed three times today.

I'm so proud I could just die.

Cause you got so much to give,
but you throw it all away
And all you got to show for who you are
is pain

I'm really disappointed in myself right now. I relapsed today for the first time in about three weeks. I had a feeling too, when my mom and sister left and I had the entire house to myself. I've been trying to keep myself busy so I don't find myself home alone, but between two jobs, guitar, and a social life, I'm running myself into the ground. ( Read more... )

I am SO exhausted! But in a good way. I went to the hospital at 7 this morning to get a physical so I can work in my dad's office. I met the ladies I'm gonna be working with, and while they aren't exactly the life of the party, they're all nice. I came home on the interstate by myself for the first time (yikes!) and then worked on my scrapbook til ( Read more... )

Some people have on-line journals simply because they want other people to read them. I'm not like that. But I am going to talk about people alot of times that probably will read stuff about them. Oops ( Read more... )

I just got home from MASC, and wow this is gonna be a long entry cause I had so much fun!!!!!! When me and Dee got there, we were both anxious and unsure about it, especially after they found a wasp nest in our dorm room. We weren't gonna be in the same council either which meant we wouldn't see each other all week long (cept when we slept). But ( Read more... )

I need a break from life.

Today was AWESOME. I worked things out with Denise and decided to go to camp. Almost all of my ebay stuff came in, including this awesome autographed pic of Jason Wade. AND AND AND I GOT MY GUITAR FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH! It's gorgeous (just like the guy who sold it to me). It's a Seagull acoustic guitar that was handmade in Canada. And ( Read more... )

"First teach me how to walk alone. Only then can I begin to dance."

Okay, so I make this last minute decision to get gas on the way home tonight. I pull up to a pump, and this jeep wrangler pulls up to the one on the other side. This incredibly HOT guy gets out, and the two of us kinda exchange smiles. As I am getting gas, I can totally feel him watching me, and when he's not watching me, I'm watching him. We both ( Read more... )