I hate the way every social occasion revolves around food. Movies and buttered popcorn. Dates and ice cream. Six flags and greasy burgers. Concerts and more greasy burgers. Vacations and huge meals at fancy restaurants. And of course ( Read more... )

It's so weird, I've developed the worst case of insomnia over the past two weeks. I don't decide not to sleep cause I'm not tired, I just don't want to. I like being up when no one else is. It seems like its the only time during the day that I can think, and get my feelings down on paper. It's actually really inconvenient....

I decided to go on a walk on the Rockwood Reservation trails near my house. Well, so maybe I did run a little. Running is even more fun when you not only have headphones clapped to your ears, but pretty trees surrounding you as well. The trail was really hard. When I got to the top, I was leaning over trying to keep from collapsing (yeah I'm ( Read more... )

Does it scare you that I can be something different from you? Would it make you feel more comfortable if I wasn't?

Well you can't control me. And you can't take away from me who I am.

So he looks at me and says "Do you have to wig out about every single thing ( Read more... )

So last night, I finally decided to let Missie in on what everyone else who reads this journal already knows. She comes over, and literally, it was like none of the pain, isolation, and anger ever existed. The hardest part was spitting it out(no pun intended). There's really no easy way to break that to someone who has been completely oblivious. ( Read more... )

What happens when you realize the thing you have been calling a reason for your pain turns out to just be another excuse to hurt?

You know, I can honestly tell you that when a person you have confided in stabs you in the back, it hurts like hell. People who you have shared certain things about yourself that not many other people know. People you have tried to be there for whenever they needed a shoulder to cry on. People you have never judged, labeled crazy, or gotten so ( Read more... )

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I have to say, tonight rocked. I actually had fun. I don't know what got into me, but all the sudden it was just okay to be a flirty teenage girl. I was a sixteen year old girl with a new car, cute outfit, and a best friend who can make anything fun. It was really awesome. I actually felt beautiful and carefree. I wonder if this is what it's ( Read more... )