So I spent 2 1/2 months inpatient at SP. I also got diagnosed with left temporal lobe seizures which explains a lot. I am currently in a day program at the county hospital which I'll be done with on Tuesday. I'm not sure what I'll be doing after that, I have to look into volunteering or possibly getting a job. I have to do something that will keep ( Read more... )

Therapy is not going well (at least from my point of view). It's not going the direction I want it to, and I feel like my t doesn't want to work with me anymore. She seems like she's going back and forth between being angry with me and really wanting to help. I feel like she wishes she could just send me away and have me living in some state ( Read more... )

I'm feeling really frustrated tonight... my mom is bumming money and bitching to me about things that don't concern me. I'm sick of this family, of just being a fucking bank to my brothers when my mom doesn't have money to feed their nicotine habits. I'm also fucking sick of the SSA because every week I get some friggin' cryptic piece of mail from ( Read more... )

So, I just got back from an inpatient psych. stay yesterday. I took an overdose of 50 extra strength tylenol (on July 13th) and was on a medical floor (Intermediate care, step above ICU) for two days. It is a horrible thing to experience and if anyone is ever thinking of doing that kind of thing it is absolutely *dreadful*. I vomited for 6 straight ( Read more... )

going absolutely out of my mind. feeling so very panicky. lots of really negative thoughts/ideas passing through... not doing well at all. don't know why things are so hard. (?)

so, yeah... not doing so well with the ED stuffs... and feeling very sorry for myself right now :( blah. crappyness.

I haven't really "blogged" in a long time. I started this blog way back in '01.. I was in 10th grade in high school. It's very strange to look back on those posts, and what my problems were compared to what they are now-. A lot of things have changed but some of my struggles really have not. I graduated out of the group home I was living in, and ( Read more... )

PAIN. GRrrrrr. I need to find a medical doctor in Frederick. Dr. Menocal puts me on hold for years and never answers, I don't even get to talk to a human being but I'm told to keep trying. Only one other doctor in Frederick will take my insurance and he seems kinda shady. I'm hoping to find a pain management clinic or specialist to help me deal ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been a loooooooooonggggggggg time since I posted. My laptop is broken so I haven't had internet access for quite a while. I'm taking French 101 over the summer at FCC. Between work and school I'm tired out. I hope to find some way to update on here more often, maybe I can get online at school or something, I dunno. Well, I have to go, I ( Read more... )

Don't wanna hear the news ( Read more... )