so im doing crappy. our inspections are tomorrow so hopefully all this anxiety and cleaning will be over. I'm exhausted. i feel like i dont have any friends. <3,

-molliebear

too tired to self harm. i hate myself right now. <3,

-molliebear

so im doing crappy. our inspections are tomorrow so hopefully all this anxiety and cleaning will be over. I'm exhausted. i feel like i dont have any friends. <3,

-molliebear

P.S.- I now have to wear depends at night due to my messed up bladder, how degrading.

so I used one of my unhealthy coping mechanisms today. it's your guess which one. im exhausted, i worked 9 hours today and i have to work tomorrow as well. not much else to say, i feel much better. i have therapy tomorrow and i dunno what he wants from me. off <3,

-molliebear

i feel like shit. all i do is hurt the people around me. i want to cut so badly but i cant deal with the aftermath. I'm tired of hurting inside. I feel like a fuck up all the time. I feel like a fucking idiot, im so damn slow. i hate my life. this sucks. off to take a shower. <3,

-molliebear

exhausted. I feel like all i do is eat,sleep,clean,and work. so tired, will try to write tomorrow <3,

-molliebear

Doing okay. Inspections coming up, we've been cleaning a lot. I'm feeling anxious right now and I'm not sure why. I haven't talked to Dawn or Sam in a while and I miss them. I know everyone has busy lives but I feel so alone. Work has been tiring, making lots of mistakes apparently. I feel crappy about that, I have a constant fear they are going to ( Read more... )

So I'm on my day pass with my mom. I got my stitches out today. I got a hair cut too and it's cute (i think so) with sideways bangs. I want to go to the movie theater and see Juno but I dun think my mom will do it. Anyways, I have to go, I'm probably just going home or something. <3,

-molliebear

I almost died today- I was a foot away from getting hit by a car. I feel completely disgusting, i am so fat i am fighting so hard not to purge. I miss Dawn, I miss Samula, i miss having friends :( I work tomorrow and I really don't want to. I'm exhausted physically but my mind is going fast. I want to cut deep again but i don't want to go IP at all ( Read more... )

im having a hard night. i binged (i dunno if my roomates noticed), i *really* *really* want to purge. I feel so damn full it's disgusting. I hate it. I also really want to cut. i hurt inside and i dunno why. this SUCKS. my only escape from food is sleep. off ( Read more... )