BTW- Some fucking idiot is IMing people saying something about their friends page being messed up- DO NOT CLICK THE LINK, i let the curiousity get the better of me and i clicked it and 33 windows explorer windows popped up with lovely images like a picture of someone's face blown off, pornography, penises and such. It was very childish. It's a pain ( Read more... )

ZzDarkStarzZ86 (10:11:11 PM): i hate my life, i want to die so badly ( Read more... )

Okay, so I just got out of therapy a bit ago. My therapist actually said "I'm not going to treat somebody who's going to die", i.e if I cut like that again he won't see me anymore. It was a real wake up call.. I didn't think he would say that. It also put things into perspective, if I don't stop I could accidently press too hard and sever an artery ( Read more... )

I feel like shit physically. I have a headache and my freaking arm hurts. i guess it's all that reconnecting-healing-nerves crap but my fingers can move fine so i dunno. i have community room for a week because i forgot to take out two small bags of trash. i hate this house so much. it is so petty. I feel so irritable lately, it is either irritable ( Read more... )

Having an anxious day. I'm not sure why I feel this way. I miss my mom, even though she's sick and couldn't visit today anyways. I hate feeling this way. It sucks. I want to sleep all day. I don't want to do budgeting goal work. blah. <3,

-molliebear

Had to take an ice cold shower today :P The idea we had to wrap my arm up in part of a plastic glove and tape around the end didn't work. I can't get it wet because of the internal stitches and i have to have them in for two weeks!! Grrr. It's a pain in the ass to shower with this thing. Serves me right for cutting in the first place. Blah. off <3,

feeling self concious of the fact that i've had 94 stitches in the last 6 months. something must change. i dunno what but it's gotta change. <3,

-molliebear

So I cut on sunday. I cut through muscle (yikes)- 37 stitches. Had to spend 5 days inpatient on a crappy county ward. I feel better now but my hand hurts (well, duh). i am tired all the time because i slept all day while i was there. anyways, im off. <3,

-molliebear

i am a fat fucking slob. i am disgusting. all the fucking shit that happened to me is my fault. i fucking hate myself. i want to end it all so bad.. one of my parts came out and scared my roomate and now i feel like shit. ive been switching all damn day because i (mollie) have been having unsafe stuff going on and it's been a free for all with ( Read more... )

So Rose came out yesterday for the whole day. I was having self harm issues so she did work for us and was out when we got home. She introduced herself to my roomate. My roomate was cool with it, which is a relief. So it's me Mollie here now. I'm feeling anxious and I'm not really sure why.Blah. If only I had my Ativan PRN! I hate this. I have a ( Read more... )