me and amber made up..i'm so fuckin happy.

sorry for not updating but i've been grounded.

friends~ things are a whole lot better since my last post. yes, i've lost one of my best friends, but you live and you learn. i can't take back what i did and i have to live with the consequences.

boys~ eric has been a complete waste of my time. can't say i didnt enjoy cuz you bet i did. but thinking ( Read more... )

i dont even deserve to live. i should be killed. i'm the worst person in the world.

i took the one thing that i knew my best friend loved and i fuckin ripped it away from her. i can't even explain how stupid i am. why? my friends would never do that to me. ever. i would die for these girls. i would fuckin die for them. and now i'm ruining her life ( Read more... )

jesus christ my stomach hurts..ow ow ow

one question for the day..(hopefully i have the answer later)

is it my fault or yours??

hm..everyone hates me. interesting since i didnt do anything. its crazy how everyone is so quick to turn their back on you. i have been forgiven by some of them tho. at least thats good.

it seems like things just keep gettin crazier. i'm kinda upset about how my body is so stupid. i barely drink and i puke my lungs out. jeez.

i'm thinking bout you even when i'm with him. i want you, i cant have you, and he's right here. wat do i do? its not like either of you are gonna be around for a long time. but i just wish u'd want to be with ( Read more... )

All my life, I've been so insecure. I've never been good enough for what I've wanted, so I've never been good enough for myself. I always aim for something just a little bit out of my reach, so most of the time, I fail. Mostly speaking about guys. First, there was my brother's friend.  For him, I was simply my brother's sister, and even if we both ( Read more... )

this day sucked. it was so freakin fucked up. i dont even kno where to start.

ok first mat is in the hospital. i feel like shit, cuz i basically broke it off w/him the nite before. and now he's in the hospital. i'm going to see him tomorrow. i'm feel like a bitch. if he's not ok, i swear. i mean i cried wen i found out anyway. jeez, i'm not gonna ( Read more... )

i cant stop fuckin smiling.

wow..last nite was insane.

wont be forgetting october 9th anytime soon..