I am dying..... I really want to just die already this hurts.... I don't understand, what did I do what caused this. It has to be me..... or him... or France.... I am not asking to beat France I know I don't stand a chance... even though at one point I think I did. I just wanna rewind time.... do things differently.... I took it for granted and I' ( Read more... )

Well its been too long again but I'm working on updating on a regular schedule. Since my last entry I finally told my folks about not going to college. Guess I can be an adult... sometimes. I really do need to work on talking to them cus they are a lot more understanding then I give them credit for. Now all I need to do is find a job here and I'll ( Read more... )

You Are 20 Years Old

20

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe ( Read more... )

I finally got done with my Defensive Driving course thingy for getting speeding tickets this summer. Good one on my part, for getting caught that is. I'm still looking for a job which sucks(I hate muncie), but I have been informed of a few places looking where you don't need experience finally. I never thought I could miss school, boy was I wrong. ( Read more... )

Yeah, yeah I know its been forever and 2 days since my last update, but I'm really going to try better this time. Um, well obviously a lot has happened given the time span of entries, most of it I don't wanna go into. I am currently not going to Ball State and I'm looking for a job until I go back in the fall, hopefully. I will also be deciding on ( Read more... )

Um, I know its been like forever and a century since my last update. Hell I don't even remember what the last one was about. Anyway, I've been really busy with school and getting my grades back up to where they should be. So I'm sorry to all of you that feel neglected by me lately, its all me and not you. So yeah, I'm broke, that sucks, B dyed my ( Read more... )

Um, well I haven't updated in awhile so I felt the need. I guess I've just been really busy with homework flowing outta my ass. Grr to that, I wish I had more time to spend with my friends, sorry guys :{ I'll try and make some more time. I really need to get my grades up though, or else dun dun duh. Well I guess thats all I had to say, and oh yeah ( Read more... )

I dunno what to really write, I had something in mind and then it went away. Must not have been very important I guess. Since my last update I'm doing better, but my major is still bugging me. I just need to make up my mind once and for all. I think the thing that scares me the most is that I won't be good at anything, so even if I wanted to change ( Read more... )

I don't even know what to start off writing, I have so much in my head right now. I feel like a baby, cus all I wanna do is throw the covers over my head and cry myself to sleep. What's wrong, you're probably wondering? Everything! I can't pinpoint one certain problem, its school, my major, my grades, my family, my ex, just life in general. ( Read more... )