upon returning to america ( Read more... )

i'm back home.
back in ameruca,

it's hard for me to sum up my month in japan.

but the sunrise i saw over the yokohama port on
july 19th, 2010-

we shouted at the ocean
' stupid ocean ! '
in japanese

stupid ocean, i'll never forget you.


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i stood atop the city
that had brought me to my knees
where i learned that love was harder
than just asking ' please'
and as the sun began to rise
i became one of the trees
as i stood atop the city
that had brought me to my knees.

takeshi hosomi.

the band- aid on my broken heart.

last night, junepei kept asking if i was 1/2 japanese

i told him my mom's name was maria

he can assume.

hahahahah


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strange ( Read more... )

food i'd like to eat upon returning to america:

panera
chipotle
diet coke
mom's hot lemonade
my curry
pizza
french fries
hash browns
banana pancakes
apples
celery
bun bao

goshhhh, i'm so hungry

star crossed lovers.
isn't that what we are ?

a festival for us.

shall we meet tonight, then?

we can break the rules,
can't we?

i can't see any galaxy
i can't feel the moon watching me

but can we still meet ?

the endlessly grey skies that i instantly loved
haven't broken up but once

i saw a blue sky here once

and i liked it.

it's raining again

raining alot
and for some reason i'm reminded of that winter day at julie's
the blinding white
the scent of julie's room
the feel of the sweater i was wearing

i remember it.

i fear gaining weight.

' i really don't want ( Read more... )

it:s a humid monday here in japan.
i am sitting on juns bed.

this new world is the perfect shade of grey.

yesterday, after spending the majority of the day on a plane, train, or subway-
we made our way over to juns place.

and he and i sat in the rain talk and smoking

and we all drank

and i decided
and then took it back

and now im just as confused as ever ( Read more... )